Me's of now and then.

[moonwaltz]

As I dig through the depths of my room I uncover secrets, scents, experiences of the past that are surreal at times with memory - as though the time / space continuum created someone else and the me then is not the me now and the connection is one of witness not participant. It wasn't me. It couldn't have been me. It was someone else, the only me

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[moonvoice]

Feel as though I have lost identity as "me" - whether or not it is true - I know you disagree - it is how I FEEL and it is real to me.

I hate this feeling. Because feelings defy logic, and you can even go 'yes, I KNOW the logic of what you're saying, now you take the time to KNOW that this is feelings and it's not that easy.' Even making that statement, is hard. I like to be logical. Feelings are hard. Harder still when the others won't listen or care.

*hugs*

[moonwaltz]

Feelings are how we experience things and as such they are as real as the experience itself. Feelings are what link those experiences together and what bind us between now and then.

Our human logic for feeling states that X experience should equal X feeling but our reactions aren't always linear and that's where the confusion begins and logic loses it's place in feeling.. and we start to feel wrong and become misunderstood because instead of X we feel Y.. or W.. or heck.. a bit of A-Z.

I like to be logical too, but I find with feelings if I let myself take too much comfort in logic I start to think I can predict them.. which is in itself illogical given the acknowledgement of the non-linear equation above. In doing so I find myself being less honest and open with others because I assume I know their reaction / feeling and I skip that step...

Yes. Hugs.. hugs are good :)