Seeing is Believing (THE FANMIX!)
So, I decided that Seeing is Believing's music needed to be heard. These are the songs that I listened to a lot while I was writing this, and the specific order represents chapter order. So, you can infer what you will from the tenth song, but THIS WAS METICULOUSLY DONE and I hope the ZIP works or I might cry. I tried it and it worked, so...
AND. A giant round of applause needs to go toputakeepareyou because she made me my pretty covers and my banner. Because she's awesome like that.
1: Lucky - Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat
But the biggest addition to her life was somehow Rachel, still. Her life may as well have revolved around the girl, in a scary, exciting way. Her life probably wouldn't even be a life without Rachel, the way she just lights up Quinn's life and rooms like she's a really bright lamp or something.
And Quinn was in love with her.
i feel your whisper across the sea
i keep you with me in my heart
you make it easier when life gets hard
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
2: Chasing Pavements - Adele
"Where are you?" she asks the empty room, and she gasps when she feels a hand land on her shoulder, pulling Rachel around to meet Quinn's hazel eyes, a lazy smile flickering across her face.
"I'll find my way home. Promise me you'll wait," Quinn whispers, and Rachel knows now that this is a dream, because Quinn is pressing closer, pressing her lips onto Rachel's with sweetness and want behind the simple touch.
"I'll wait," Rachel answers, knowing that Quinn is about to slip away. "I love you," she says, and Quinn only nods, smiling.
It's the first time she's ever said it to Quinn, in a dream or in life, and it kills her to know that it could be the last.
if i tell the world,
i'll never say enough,
'cause it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you
3: Come Home - One Republic
She walks home, glancing occasionally up at the clouds gathering in the sky and pulling her light jacket tighter around her. It's spring now and normally Rachel would feel refreshed at the thought of the endless winter finally giving way to the blooming of flowers and greenness being restored to the earth, but mostly it makes her sad, because she should be with Quinn now, wherever she was.
there's someone i've been missing
and i think that they could be
the better half of me
4: On Call - Kings of Leon
But what mattered now was that Rachel was here.
i'm on call
to be there
one and all
5: Geek in the Pink - Jason Mraz
"Whatever. So, Quinn Fabray is a nerd, fine. But you love me anyways," Quinn says, rubbing Rachel's shoulders and working at a knot she finds in twin spots on either side. Rachel tries not to groan in thanks.
"I do love you, Quinn," Rachel almost whispers, leaning her head back to land on Quinn's soft but firm stomach (which, if Rachel may say so herself, housed a set of absolutely killer abs that Rachel had obscene dreams about for weeks after an afternoon spent in Quinn's hot tub) as Quinn giggled and pressed her thumbs deep into Rachel's shoulders.
"Love you too, Rach. I think I'm going to go destroy that creeper Jacob Ben Israel's shrine to you now, so, have to go," Quinn says, her hands dropping from Rachel's shoulders just as the bell for fourth period rings out.
hey baby look at me go
from zero to hero
you better take it from a geek like me
well I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
who wouldn't care if you com....plete them or not
6: Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova
Before she says anything, Quinn switches songs, to Rachel's favorite popular music song ever, Falling Slowly. Most people wouldn't expect such a pick from her, she knows, but she is a fan of rabid romanticism, as evidenced by her assertion that candles would be present if she were to ever engage in sexual relations. But Once was the first movie she and Quinn ever saw together (Quinn had claimed it was weird but the music was good, and Rachel had been so in awe of being in Quinn's room and not being attacked that she had just nodded) and she really did love the song.
She and Quinn had once sang through the entire soundtrack together, with Quinn taking Glen Hansard's voice because her voice sounded gorgeous at a lower level, not because she sounded like a man, and Rachel taking Marketa Irglova's parts while they were making dinner together - all four of them, she and Quinn and her dads. That was a wonderful night - Quinn had hugged her for a full five minutes out on her doorstep, obviously trying to reign in her emotion because it was obvious to all of them that Quinn fit in so well with Rachel and her dads and she had already left to move back in her with parents. It was the first night Rachel realized how very much she was in love with Quinn, made amazingly obvious when Quinn had crawled into bed after Rachel, smiling into Rachel's upper arm and saying that she was glad Rachel had let her stay.
falling slowly, eyes that know me
and I can't go back
7: Sing Out - Anchor and Braille
Quinn's dream is the same as it always is.
It's Central Park, at the reservoir's edge and the ducks are squawking out on the glassy surface as a little girl tosses pieced of bread onto the water. Rachel is talking animatedly with a few random fans, grinning widely as they compliment her and taking quick glances over at the girl every thirty seconds or so. Quinn is standing back a few feet, enjoying the way the sun hits Rachel's hair, perfectly happy to just stand there and watch her for the rest of her life.
i must confess you're all i dream about
all that i think without
never have a single doubt
...
you're so shy, don't know what you're worth
but you're worth so much more
more than any song could implore
your family's gone, so let's start our own
down along the wood
turn our house into a home
8: When It's Time - Jonathan Gallagher Jr. (from American Idiot the Musical)
This moment feels like a very important one, like something she can't screw up. So she just says it, what's been building in her for a year or more, forever.
"I love you," Quinn whispers, and Rachel freezes again, tears running silently down her face as she opens and closes her mouth haplessly. "I love you, Rachel."
from the first day you came into my life
the time ticks around you
and then i need your voice
as a key to unlock all the love that's trapped in me
so tell me when it's time
to say i love you
9: Shiver - Coldplay
"Look, Rach, I don't know what I would've done, but this is not a lie. I love you, Rachel. I love you so much, and I have and nothing will change that, not visibility or my parents or anything. You have to understand," she whispers, barely pulling back from the shorter girl to speak. Rachel's forehead thunks against hers painfully, and Quinn watches as Rachel's brown eyes slide shut.
"Then prove it," Rachel answers, stepping backwards and away from Quinn, staring at the ground. "I'll see you tomorrow, Quinn. I love you."
Quinn watches helplessly as Rachel slides into her car and slowly drives away, and she can feel her heart hit the ground right along with the rain and her own tears.
so you know how much i need you
but you never even see me, do you?
and is this my final chance of getting you?
10: Terrified - Katharine McPhee and Zachary Levi
i only say it 'cause i mean it
i only mean it 'cause it's true
so don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
'cause it fills me up and holds me close
whenever i'm without you
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