yup why do i even try... i messed up yet again. Ive lost two awesome friends lately... and i feel aweful cause i dont kno what i did. These two ment alot to me in my life and now... i guess they want nothing to do with me. Today was the quietest car ride to work... today has been terrible and i feel terrible... idk what to do anymore but realize ( Read more... )

UPDATE TIME! im too lazy for this haha.. ya so im offically 18 as of APRIL 7th!!! wooooo. I got my car, and its purdy. 1998 Dodge Intrepid. So i guess life is pretty durn good. The past weekend was the best one of the entire year, maybe even my life. Friday was great because Lita came over for a LONG time and we spend about half the day ( Read more... )

all i can say right now is... god d@mn. =)

I love you beautiful.

Life is gettin better for me. I found out why lita was angry with me and had the chance to show her i can fix it. So now i feel better about things and things will get stronger with us. My family isnt being so controlling because they let me leave for like a week here for florida. My mom is being alot nicer and that makes things better around ( Read more... )

There is no stupid emo thing for this. The only thing i can say here is that life is life and its getting aggitating. This week i have only spent maybe 15 minutes with lita. I cant go a week like that... u all kno how i was while she was in Cali. Yea not good.... i live for two things in my life anymore... her and my grandfather. They both are ( Read more... )

uhh...why am i updating. No one reads my page because not to many people use this. I do this to vent... and whats the point of that. I complain to much and everything is goin crazy... life is lame and it should be over now. I feel horrible today... and idk and idc. Im just gonna shut up now.

Well its time for my randomness update i guess. Things have been ok lately.. better then my last few updates. Ive been gettin sick alot though cause of the season change...damn allergies. But when the season change happens i will be sooo happy. And now me, roy, and tom are planning a trip to my favorite state in the whole wide world! FLORIDA. ( Read more... )

k so i was gonna update after Taste Of Chaos but i didnt really get on the computer alot after. The concert was one of the best ive ever been to. Even though i got beat up and banged up it was well worth the pain lol. I got to see the Deftones play which made me superrrr happy cause ive wanted to see them since i started listening to them back ( Read more... )

Uhh so i realized its time for an update, something i never seem to remember to do... except when something is really bothering me or im super bored. Well lets seee.... life is life and yea blah who cares lol. I got a job finally at Meijers with mister Roy Reno. Wooo now that monkey is off my back, next is gettin my licence and a car. Which i ( Read more... )

Wow...i just got done reading Fisch's lj entry...and now it all makes sense. The reasons ive been so upset and so angry alot lately is all comin out. And i dont think i can do anything to change it. I miss my old friends... i miss the old days of sitting out on Shawn Bennetts porch with Fisch and Pudd rambling about nothing and playing guitar. ( Read more... )