Fic: Chad's Girls (Chad Michael Murray/Jensen Ackles)
Here it is. The scenario that ate my brain and turned into 3,178 words of utter schmoop. This is the ultimate 'all for me' fic.
Title: Chad's Girls
Pairing: Chad Michael Murray/Jensen Ackles
Rating: R
Beta: Hahahaha! I'm too embarrassed to ask anyone.
Warning: This is totally unbeta'd and it's totally rambling prose that I wrote to tickle my own fancy. This is pure unapologetic sap. Also - apologies to Kenzie because I don't present her well, but this is just fiction y'all.
Jensen shouldn't have answered the door. He knew better. This wasn't his house and it could have been anyone. But it wasn't just anyone. It was Kenzie.
Kenzie and a baby.
A baby that she handed over to Jensen with the words, "I can't do this shit. Let his father figure it out." And then she was gone. The baby stared at Jensen with bright blue eyes.
"Fuck," he muttered.
***********
Getting involved with Chad Michael Murray wasn't something he'd ever really planned on. Honestly, who would? Chad didn't exactly have the best track record for relationships. But things happened. Drunken things like hooking up in the bathroom of a CW party.
He'd never expect to find himself making out with Chad in a bathroom stall at a CW party. Back pressed up against the wall, kissing fiercly, Chad unbuttoning his pants and wiggling them over his hips before dropping to his knees and sucking Jensen into his throat.
Christ it had been good. He'd been ready to burst when Chad had nudged his hip and told him to turn around. At that point he'd expected to get fucked hard against the stall door. He hadn't expected Chad's hot, wet mouth against his hole, licking and sucking and working him open with his tongue. By the time Chad stood up to push his way inside him, Jensen was so worked up that he shot all over the door at the initial press of Chad's cock. It was all he could do to hold on for the ride.
After, they shared one last kiss and then Chad flew back to Wilmington and Jensen was off to Vancouver. So long, thanks for the fuck, maybe we can do it again some time.
Of course, Jensen hadn't really thought they'd do it again some time. He couldn't remember the last time he'd been so wrong about something.
*************
Meeting up at the CW party wasn't the first time Chad and Jensen had hooked up. They'd fooled around back when they were both on the Creek. After their first day on set together, Chad had asked him if we wanted to go smoke a fatty. Jensen had stopped in his tracks and just stared at him. "Do I look like I do drugs?"
"What?" Chad shrugged. "Don't tell me, you're all into the method thing and since your character--"
"It's got nothing to do with my character man. I just don't do that shit."
"Dude. It's a joint. I'm not trying to get you hooked on smack or something."
"Do people still say smack?" He smiled at the annoyed look on Chad's face.
"Fuck you."
At that Jensen raised an eyebrow in invitation before he even realized he was doing it and Chad just froze. He looked uncertain, like he wasn't sure if Jensen was fucking with him or not. Jensen tilted his head towards his car and said, "Lose the joint."
Chad flicked it aside and followed Jensen to his car. Jensen gave him something much better to wrap his lips around. They didn't even make it out of the parking space.
************
"I am not ready to be a father."
"What?"
When in crisis Jensen turned to a very short list of people. Since the current crisis involving Chad, there was really only one person to call. Jared.
"Kenzie showed up with this kid and just handed her over to me."
"What? Kenzie?... Chad's ex, Kenzie?"
"Yes! Am I speaking a foreign language here? What other Kenzie is there?"
"Did you sleep with her?"
Jensen pulled the phone away from his ear and looked at it to make sure he'd dialed the right number then shook his head. "No, Jared, I didn't sleep with her."
"Then..."
"Chad."
"I know Chad slept with her."
"Yeah, apparently he wasn't careful enough."
"Okaaaaay. But what's that got to do with you?"
Silence. "You don't ... Chad didn't ... He didn't tell you?"
"That Kenzie had a baby? No. I think I'd remember my best friend having a kid."
"No. About us."
"Huh?"
It went downhill from there. Chad hadn't told Jensen. Jensen hadn't said anything because he thought Jared already knew and since Jared hadn't said anything, Jensen assumed he'd be uncomfortable with it so he'd not talked about it. Jared wasn't uncomfortable with it, but he was pissed about not knowing.
"You're my two best friends, asshole. You could have said."
"Well I'm saying now. Jesus, Jared. What do I do?"
More silence, then, "She really just shoved the kid in your hands?"
"Yeah."
"Huh. What's Chad going to do?"
"Take care of her I guess. But that's my whole point, Jare. I'm not ready to be a dad."
"Suck it up or walk away now."
"What?"
"You heard me. Either figure it out and deal with it, or end things now. I know Chad, Jen. If he keeps her, if he does this, he's gonna do it all the way."
************
Sex with Chad was explosive. It was hotter than anything Jensen had ever had. It was fast and dirty in bar bathrooms and alleys. It was slow and tender in one of their beds. It was easy and right and he was surprisingly happy. They took turns flying back and forth to see each other. It was Jensen's turn in NC when Kenzie'd turned up at Chad's door. He wasn't sure if it was a good or a bad thing that she showed up at the end of his visit.
When Chad walked in the door after a quick trip to the grocery store, Jensen had simply said, "Kenzie dropped off the baby. Gotta go," then pressed a quick kiss to Chad's cheek as he pushed her into his arms before slipping out the door. He called a cab as he walked down the street; he didn't know what else to do.
************
"Are you going to talk to him?" Jared asked between takes.
"Who?"
Jared's look said everything. The "asshole" mumbled under his breath just confirmed things.
"What am I supposed to say?"
"At least take his calls. He called me crying last night. Crying, Jensen. Christ, I thought you guys were just fucking. He didn't cry this much over Sophia."
"Fuck." Crying? And Chad had the nerve to call Jensen the girl in the relationship.
************
He picked up on the third ring with a barely there "hey" but that was enough. Chad's "I'm sorry. I didn't know. I miss you," came spilling out fast and even though Jensen had heard it all on his voicemail every day for the past three weeks, it was somehow different like this. "I know," he'd said back. "I'm sorry, too."
He booked a flight east and Chad and Laney met him at the airport, both smiling. When he'd first seen her, Jensen's stomach had dropped. Now, seeing her in Chad's arms, seeing the light in his eyes, seeing them both waiting for him like that, made him melt. Maybe he really was the girl in the relationship.
***********
Hiatus comes and they all end up in LA together. Jensen's become a whiz at preparing bottles while holding Laney in one arm. He thinks maybe he is ready to be a dad. Of course, it's not like anyone outside of their tiny circle knows or will know. He can just imagine the pictures and headlines in all the celebrity magazines if anyone found out. Part of him wants to shout it to the world. Mostly he's content to keep it quiet, to keep his job. His publicist is amazing, but he's not that good.
They settle into some crazy semblance of family. Chad's got some photo shoots during the break and he comes home at the end of a long day to find Jensen napping on the couch with Laney on his chest. The photo ends up on the fridge and Jensen makes sure he's got a copy for his apartment in Vancouver when he has to go back. He's in love with the kid. He thinks he might be in love with her dad, too. That was never in the cards. It was just a couple quick fucks. Then a couple more a few years later. Now he's in some crazy bi-coastal relationship and missing his baby and his baby's baby. How the hell did it all happen so fast?
***********
Kenzie calls on Laney's first birthday. She's sorry. She wants to see her kid, maybe work out some sort of shared custody. Chad freaks out and boards a plane for Canada and Kenzie freaks out that he's kidnapping her baby. It takes Chad coming straight back without ever going through customs and weeks of their attorneys mediating all the screaming accusations before things are settled.
Kenzie abandoned the kid and Jensen's ready to say so in court if it comes to that. He's ready to be outed to the world. He's ready to do whatever he has to in order to protect his family.
He tells his publicist to be ready for the shit to hit the fan.
But Kenzie backs down quietly when Chad offers her some money and another flashy new car. Jensen's not sure, but he thinks that pisses him off more than her trying to get custody. That she could give up Laney for money and a car. He wonders what Chad ever saw in her. He wonders what Chad sees in him after having been involved in a relationship like that. He wonders if what Chad sees now is different than back on the Creek set or different even than that night in the bathroom. Although he wonders if he can get Chad to reenact that night that started this all up again and grins as he packs a bag for the weekend.
His trip is canceled when problems on set push filming late into Friday night. Chad sends him a video text of Laney stumbling three steps through the living room before falling on her bottom and giggling. He can't wait until the season's over. Until the show's over. He's not sure how much longer he can do this long distance thing.
***********
"We need a house," Chad says over the phone one night.
"What?"
"A house. With a yard, a swingset, a place for Laney to grow up. A bedroom that's ours. With a closet that has both our clothes in it. A kitchen table where we share meals every day."
"Are you proposing?" It's not like Chad doesn't have a history of it.
"Ass."
"You love my ass."
Quiet and then so softly, "Yeah, I do. That's why..."
"Where?" This is the last season of Supernatural. But Chad's had an offer for another season. "Wilmington?"
He can imagine Chad shrugging his shoulders. He's probably lying in bed, staring at the empty space on the left side. Jensen 's lying in his own bed staring at the empty space on the right.
"I miss you. Laney misses you."
"Miss you, too."
"If you came here, what would you do? It's not like LA."
"Don't care. I could stand some time off. Relax, take care of you and Laney."
"You are such a girl."
"Fuck you."
"Next weekend, Jen." It's a promise. He can't wait.
"Yeah."
*************
It was never what you might call a regular thing and it certainly wasn't exclusive, but now and then when they saw each other and were bored or horny, the two would hook up for some above average sex. It was a nice arrangement. But then Jensen went off to Vancouver and Chad got a permanent gig in Wilmington and that was that. It was over.
Even when Chad would come up to visit Jared, nothing happened. Until that night in New York when it did.
*************
"Hey, watcha doing?" Jensen was lonely and hoping that maybe he and Jared could get a pizza, play some Madden. But it didn't sound like that was going to happen.
"Nothin'."
"Nothing? Then why do you sound all guilty like I caught you jerking off or something?"
"I wasn't jerking off, dickhead." Yeah, right. He sounded defensive as all fuck.
"Well you were doing something."
Silence.
Jensen laughed. "Or maybe, it's someone."
"Fuck you."
"Nah, you got somebody else to fuck. Who is she?"
Silence.
"Jared?"
"It's Chris, okay. Jesus, I can't--" And then the phone was clearly pulled away from him and Chris's voice was on the line. "Uh... sorry man. We were trying to figure out how to tell you."
Now it was Jensen's turn to be silent. Because seriously? Yeah, he knew Jared fucked guys every once in a while -- he knew that first hand -- but Chris? Chris? His boy. A man's man. But not in that way, of course. Or maybe in just that way and holy shit. "You and Jared!?"
"Uh..."
"Please tell me you're fucking him and not the other way around."
Silence.
"Fuck me."
"Yeah, no thanks. Jared told me you suck in bed."
"That fucker."
"Yep." And if that wasn't confirmation of the bedroom dynamic, he'd never get a clearer one.
***********
It wasn't like Jensen could get weirded out about Chris taking it up the ass. It was just that, of the two of them, Jared was definitely the bigger girl. It wasn't like his relationship where he and Chad took turns because they were equal partners and all.
Except for how Jensen couldn't get enough of Chad hovering over him, pressing inside all slow and hot so it ended up being more 80/20 than 50/50. But that was Jensen's choice. He could reassert himself anytime he wanted to. The idea of Chris lying back and taking it because Jared didn't bottom was just wrong.
***********
Jared teases Jensen all the time about being the girl in the relationship, but that's never really been an issue with him and Chad. Jensen's issue -- Chad refused to admit that it mattered -- was that Jensen was about 10 years older than Chad's usual pastimes.
At least until Laney came along. Because then all of a sudden it was most definitely an issue. Chad was relying on him because he was older. As if age came with some natural understanding of babies.
When Chad had asked for his advice one too many times, Jensen had crudely replied, "I don't know, Chad. I don't have any kids. I always managed to bag my shit when I was fucking women."
"Bitch, please. Name one woman you actually stuck your dick in. You couldn't even get it up for that Playboy bunny, pretty boy."
Jensen hung up and ignored his calls for a week. It wasn't until Chad sent chocolates and flowers every day for a week that he finally took a call. To tell him to stop, of course. After all, he wasn't the girl in the relationship.
*************
Jensen figured he'd never get tired of having Chad and Laney pick him up at the airport together. He got to see the love of his life and her dad both. But when pictures got leaked to the tabloids of the three of them in Chad's backyard in Wilmington he wasn't even sure he was going to make the next trip at all.
"Don't worry. We'll handle it," his publicist said. "There are more and more gay couples in Hollywood every day."
"Yeah, West Hollywood," he retorted.
"Fuck you, my lover and I live in West Hollywood, Jensen."
"Sorry." He really was. He was just so stressed. "I haven't even told my parents about us yet, and Chad lives in fucking North Carolina. North Carolina. That's not West Hollywood. Texas sure as shit ain't West Hollywood either." Sure as shit? Jesus, he needed a drink. He was starting to sound like Chris.
"Relax. Call your folks. Go see them. Talk to Chad. Figure out how you want to respond -- confirm or deny. Then let me and my team do our job."
He nodded and muttered, "sure," then hung up the phone.
He booked a flight to Dallas. When he got to baggage claim his mom and dad were there. Along with Chad and Laney. Chad walked right up and kissed him and said, "We'll figure it out."
Who knew Chad of all people was going to be the rock in the relationship?
*************
Jensen loved tucking Laney into bed and reading her a story. He loved the way her face would light up when he'd do the different voices. It reminded him of being on stage -- that instant response from the audience. With Laney though, he didn't even have to worry about a negative review.
Of course, as much as he loved reading to her, what he loved even more was standing outside her bedroom door listening to Chad tuck her in and read her a story. It was amazing how quickly Chad had gone from freaked out guy (shouting after Jensen's retreating body that he didn't know shit about babies other than they made a lot of shit) to being her Daddy.
*************
Tuesday afternoon: "Hey. You're probably shooting right now, but I wanted to let you know that Laney said 'Daddy' today. Well, actually she said 'Da!" and she was pointing at Diane Sawyer on the TV when she said it, but still... We miss you.
Tuesday night: "Sorry I missed you. That Diane's pretty hot for her age, Laney's got good taste... Miss you too."
Wednesday morning: "No way is Diane hotter than me."
Wednesday afternoon: "No, you're right. She's not hotter than you. Smarter, yes. Hotter, no. You're the hottest personality in all the land. People's next cover man."
Wednesday night: "Asshole."
It wasn't unusual for their games of phone tag to degenerate like this, but Jensen's final message of "I love you, too" was a first. He tried not to freak. He hadn't said it seriously before. Neither of them had. But he realized that he meant it now. He dialed again and this time Chad actually picked up. "I meant it," Jensen said.
"I know. Me too."
*************
When Supernatural finished, Jensen made the move to Wilmington to became a stay-at-home dad while Chad did a final season as whiny boy Lucas. On the third day Laney came into the kitchen and said, "Want eggs, papa." Jensen looked at Chad who just shrugged. She tugged at Jensen's jeans and repeated, "Eggs, papa. Eggs."
Jensen didn't cry. He'd moved past being the girl. So what if he was wearing an apron and organizing play dates with the ladies he'd met at the park?
*************
Kenzie turned up again on Laney's second birthday. This time she managed to call in advance and Chad invited her to the birthday party. When she picked Laney up and made silly faces, Laney cried and begged for "Je-sen" until Jensen took her from Kenzie's arms. Laney stopped crying and smiled.
Kenzie managed to choke out a "You're a family now. That's good." to Chad before racing out the door.
The End (for now)
Title: Chad's Girls
Pairing: Chad Michael Murray/Jensen Ackles
Rating: R
Beta: Hahahaha! I'm too embarrassed to ask anyone.
Warning: This is totally unbeta'd and it's totally rambling prose that I wrote to tickle my own fancy. This is pure unapologetic sap. Also - apologies to Kenzie because I don't present her well, but this is just fiction y'all.
Jensen shouldn't have answered the door. He knew better. This wasn't his house and it could have been anyone. But it wasn't just anyone. It was Kenzie.
Kenzie and a baby.
A baby that she handed over to Jensen with the words, "I can't do this shit. Let his father figure it out." And then she was gone. The baby stared at Jensen with bright blue eyes.
"Fuck," he muttered.
***********
Getting involved with Chad Michael Murray wasn't something he'd ever really planned on. Honestly, who would? Chad didn't exactly have the best track record for relationships. But things happened. Drunken things like hooking up in the bathroom of a CW party.
He'd never expect to find himself making out with Chad in a bathroom stall at a CW party. Back pressed up against the wall, kissing fiercly, Chad unbuttoning his pants and wiggling them over his hips before dropping to his knees and sucking Jensen into his throat.
Christ it had been good. He'd been ready to burst when Chad had nudged his hip and told him to turn around. At that point he'd expected to get fucked hard against the stall door. He hadn't expected Chad's hot, wet mouth against his hole, licking and sucking and working him open with his tongue. By the time Chad stood up to push his way inside him, Jensen was so worked up that he shot all over the door at the initial press of Chad's cock. It was all he could do to hold on for the ride.
After, they shared one last kiss and then Chad flew back to Wilmington and Jensen was off to Vancouver. So long, thanks for the fuck, maybe we can do it again some time.
Of course, Jensen hadn't really thought they'd do it again some time. He couldn't remember the last time he'd been so wrong about something.
*************
Meeting up at the CW party wasn't the first time Chad and Jensen had hooked up. They'd fooled around back when they were both on the Creek. After their first day on set together, Chad had asked him if we wanted to go smoke a fatty. Jensen had stopped in his tracks and just stared at him. "Do I look like I do drugs?"
"What?" Chad shrugged. "Don't tell me, you're all into the method thing and since your character--"
"It's got nothing to do with my character man. I just don't do that shit."
"Dude. It's a joint. I'm not trying to get you hooked on smack or something."
"Do people still say smack?" He smiled at the annoyed look on Chad's face.
"Fuck you."
At that Jensen raised an eyebrow in invitation before he even realized he was doing it and Chad just froze. He looked uncertain, like he wasn't sure if Jensen was fucking with him or not. Jensen tilted his head towards his car and said, "Lose the joint."
Chad flicked it aside and followed Jensen to his car. Jensen gave him something much better to wrap his lips around. They didn't even make it out of the parking space.
************
"I am not ready to be a father."
"What?"
When in crisis Jensen turned to a very short list of people. Since the current crisis involving Chad, there was really only one person to call. Jared.
"Kenzie showed up with this kid and just handed her over to me."
"What? Kenzie?... Chad's ex, Kenzie?"
"Yes! Am I speaking a foreign language here? What other Kenzie is there?"
"Did you sleep with her?"
Jensen pulled the phone away from his ear and looked at it to make sure he'd dialed the right number then shook his head. "No, Jared, I didn't sleep with her."
"Then..."
"Chad."
"I know Chad slept with her."
"Yeah, apparently he wasn't careful enough."
"Okaaaaay. But what's that got to do with you?"
Silence. "You don't ... Chad didn't ... He didn't tell you?"
"That Kenzie had a baby? No. I think I'd remember my best friend having a kid."
"No. About us."
"Huh?"
It went downhill from there. Chad hadn't told Jensen. Jensen hadn't said anything because he thought Jared already knew and since Jared hadn't said anything, Jensen assumed he'd be uncomfortable with it so he'd not talked about it. Jared wasn't uncomfortable with it, but he was pissed about not knowing.
"You're my two best friends, asshole. You could have said."
"Well I'm saying now. Jesus, Jared. What do I do?"
More silence, then, "She really just shoved the kid in your hands?"
"Yeah."
"Huh. What's Chad going to do?"
"Take care of her I guess. But that's my whole point, Jare. I'm not ready to be a dad."
"Suck it up or walk away now."
"What?"
"You heard me. Either figure it out and deal with it, or end things now. I know Chad, Jen. If he keeps her, if he does this, he's gonna do it all the way."
************
Sex with Chad was explosive. It was hotter than anything Jensen had ever had. It was fast and dirty in bar bathrooms and alleys. It was slow and tender in one of their beds. It was easy and right and he was surprisingly happy. They took turns flying back and forth to see each other. It was Jensen's turn in NC when Kenzie'd turned up at Chad's door. He wasn't sure if it was a good or a bad thing that she showed up at the end of his visit.
When Chad walked in the door after a quick trip to the grocery store, Jensen had simply said, "Kenzie dropped off the baby. Gotta go," then pressed a quick kiss to Chad's cheek as he pushed her into his arms before slipping out the door. He called a cab as he walked down the street; he didn't know what else to do.
************
"Are you going to talk to him?" Jared asked between takes.
"Who?"
Jared's look said everything. The "asshole" mumbled under his breath just confirmed things.
"What am I supposed to say?"
"At least take his calls. He called me crying last night. Crying, Jensen. Christ, I thought you guys were just fucking. He didn't cry this much over Sophia."
"Fuck." Crying? And Chad had the nerve to call Jensen the girl in the relationship.
************
He picked up on the third ring with a barely there "hey" but that was enough. Chad's "I'm sorry. I didn't know. I miss you," came spilling out fast and even though Jensen had heard it all on his voicemail every day for the past three weeks, it was somehow different like this. "I know," he'd said back. "I'm sorry, too."
He booked a flight east and Chad and Laney met him at the airport, both smiling. When he'd first seen her, Jensen's stomach had dropped. Now, seeing her in Chad's arms, seeing the light in his eyes, seeing them both waiting for him like that, made him melt. Maybe he really was the girl in the relationship.
***********
Hiatus comes and they all end up in LA together. Jensen's become a whiz at preparing bottles while holding Laney in one arm. He thinks maybe he is ready to be a dad. Of course, it's not like anyone outside of their tiny circle knows or will know. He can just imagine the pictures and headlines in all the celebrity magazines if anyone found out. Part of him wants to shout it to the world. Mostly he's content to keep it quiet, to keep his job. His publicist is amazing, but he's not that good.
They settle into some crazy semblance of family. Chad's got some photo shoots during the break and he comes home at the end of a long day to find Jensen napping on the couch with Laney on his chest. The photo ends up on the fridge and Jensen makes sure he's got a copy for his apartment in Vancouver when he has to go back. He's in love with the kid. He thinks he might be in love with her dad, too. That was never in the cards. It was just a couple quick fucks. Then a couple more a few years later. Now he's in some crazy bi-coastal relationship and missing his baby and his baby's baby. How the hell did it all happen so fast?
***********
Kenzie calls on Laney's first birthday. She's sorry. She wants to see her kid, maybe work out some sort of shared custody. Chad freaks out and boards a plane for Canada and Kenzie freaks out that he's kidnapping her baby. It takes Chad coming straight back without ever going through customs and weeks of their attorneys mediating all the screaming accusations before things are settled.
Kenzie abandoned the kid and Jensen's ready to say so in court if it comes to that. He's ready to be outed to the world. He's ready to do whatever he has to in order to protect his family.
He tells his publicist to be ready for the shit to hit the fan.
But Kenzie backs down quietly when Chad offers her some money and another flashy new car. Jensen's not sure, but he thinks that pisses him off more than her trying to get custody. That she could give up Laney for money and a car. He wonders what Chad ever saw in her. He wonders what Chad sees in him after having been involved in a relationship like that. He wonders if what Chad sees now is different than back on the Creek set or different even than that night in the bathroom. Although he wonders if he can get Chad to reenact that night that started this all up again and grins as he packs a bag for the weekend.
His trip is canceled when problems on set push filming late into Friday night. Chad sends him a video text of Laney stumbling three steps through the living room before falling on her bottom and giggling. He can't wait until the season's over. Until the show's over. He's not sure how much longer he can do this long distance thing.
***********
"We need a house," Chad says over the phone one night.
"What?"
"A house. With a yard, a swingset, a place for Laney to grow up. A bedroom that's ours. With a closet that has both our clothes in it. A kitchen table where we share meals every day."
"Are you proposing?" It's not like Chad doesn't have a history of it.
"Ass."
"You love my ass."
Quiet and then so softly, "Yeah, I do. That's why..."
"Where?" This is the last season of Supernatural. But Chad's had an offer for another season. "Wilmington?"
He can imagine Chad shrugging his shoulders. He's probably lying in bed, staring at the empty space on the left side. Jensen 's lying in his own bed staring at the empty space on the right.
"I miss you. Laney misses you."
"Miss you, too."
"If you came here, what would you do? It's not like LA."
"Don't care. I could stand some time off. Relax, take care of you and Laney."
"You are such a girl."
"Fuck you."
"Next weekend, Jen." It's a promise. He can't wait.
"Yeah."
*************
It was never what you might call a regular thing and it certainly wasn't exclusive, but now and then when they saw each other and were bored or horny, the two would hook up for some above average sex. It was a nice arrangement. But then Jensen went off to Vancouver and Chad got a permanent gig in Wilmington and that was that. It was over.
Even when Chad would come up to visit Jared, nothing happened. Until that night in New York when it did.
*************
"Hey, watcha doing?" Jensen was lonely and hoping that maybe he and Jared could get a pizza, play some Madden. But it didn't sound like that was going to happen.
"Nothin'."
"Nothing? Then why do you sound all guilty like I caught you jerking off or something?"
"I wasn't jerking off, dickhead." Yeah, right. He sounded defensive as all fuck.
"Well you were doing something."
Silence.
Jensen laughed. "Or maybe, it's someone."
"Fuck you."
"Nah, you got somebody else to fuck. Who is she?"
Silence.
"Jared?"
"It's Chris, okay. Jesus, I can't--" And then the phone was clearly pulled away from him and Chris's voice was on the line. "Uh... sorry man. We were trying to figure out how to tell you."
Now it was Jensen's turn to be silent. Because seriously? Yeah, he knew Jared fucked guys every once in a while -- he knew that first hand -- but Chris? Chris? His boy. A man's man. But not in that way, of course. Or maybe in just that way and holy shit. "You and Jared!?"
"Uh..."
"Please tell me you're fucking him and not the other way around."
Silence.
"Fuck me."
"Yeah, no thanks. Jared told me you suck in bed."
"That fucker."
"Yep." And if that wasn't confirmation of the bedroom dynamic, he'd never get a clearer one.
***********
It wasn't like Jensen could get weirded out about Chris taking it up the ass. It was just that, of the two of them, Jared was definitely the bigger girl. It wasn't like his relationship where he and Chad took turns because they were equal partners and all.
Except for how Jensen couldn't get enough of Chad hovering over him, pressing inside all slow and hot so it ended up being more 80/20 than 50/50. But that was Jensen's choice. He could reassert himself anytime he wanted to. The idea of Chris lying back and taking it because Jared didn't bottom was just wrong.
***********
Jared teases Jensen all the time about being the girl in the relationship, but that's never really been an issue with him and Chad. Jensen's issue -- Chad refused to admit that it mattered -- was that Jensen was about 10 years older than Chad's usual pastimes.
At least until Laney came along. Because then all of a sudden it was most definitely an issue. Chad was relying on him because he was older. As if age came with some natural understanding of babies.
When Chad had asked for his advice one too many times, Jensen had crudely replied, "I don't know, Chad. I don't have any kids. I always managed to bag my shit when I was fucking women."
"Bitch, please. Name one woman you actually stuck your dick in. You couldn't even get it up for that Playboy bunny, pretty boy."
Jensen hung up and ignored his calls for a week. It wasn't until Chad sent chocolates and flowers every day for a week that he finally took a call. To tell him to stop, of course. After all, he wasn't the girl in the relationship.
*************
Jensen figured he'd never get tired of having Chad and Laney pick him up at the airport together. He got to see the love of his life and her dad both. But when pictures got leaked to the tabloids of the three of them in Chad's backyard in Wilmington he wasn't even sure he was going to make the next trip at all.
"Don't worry. We'll handle it," his publicist said. "There are more and more gay couples in Hollywood every day."
"Yeah, West Hollywood," he retorted.
"Fuck you, my lover and I live in West Hollywood, Jensen."
"Sorry." He really was. He was just so stressed. "I haven't even told my parents about us yet, and Chad lives in fucking North Carolina. North Carolina. That's not West Hollywood. Texas sure as shit ain't West Hollywood either." Sure as shit? Jesus, he needed a drink. He was starting to sound like Chris.
"Relax. Call your folks. Go see them. Talk to Chad. Figure out how you want to respond -- confirm or deny. Then let me and my team do our job."
He nodded and muttered, "sure," then hung up the phone.
He booked a flight to Dallas. When he got to baggage claim his mom and dad were there. Along with Chad and Laney. Chad walked right up and kissed him and said, "We'll figure it out."
Who knew Chad of all people was going to be the rock in the relationship?
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Jensen loved tucking Laney into bed and reading her a story. He loved the way her face would light up when he'd do the different voices. It reminded him of being on stage -- that instant response from the audience. With Laney though, he didn't even have to worry about a negative review.
Of course, as much as he loved reading to her, what he loved even more was standing outside her bedroom door listening to Chad tuck her in and read her a story. It was amazing how quickly Chad had gone from freaked out guy (shouting after Jensen's retreating body that he didn't know shit about babies other than they made a lot of shit) to being her Daddy.
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Tuesday afternoon: "Hey. You're probably shooting right now, but I wanted to let you know that Laney said 'Daddy' today. Well, actually she said 'Da!" and she was pointing at Diane Sawyer on the TV when she said it, but still... We miss you.
Tuesday night: "Sorry I missed you. That Diane's pretty hot for her age, Laney's got good taste... Miss you too."
Wednesday morning: "No way is Diane hotter than me."
Wednesday afternoon: "No, you're right. She's not hotter than you. Smarter, yes. Hotter, no. You're the hottest personality in all the land. People's next cover man."
Wednesday night: "Asshole."
It wasn't unusual for their games of phone tag to degenerate like this, but Jensen's final message of "I love you, too" was a first. He tried not to freak. He hadn't said it seriously before. Neither of them had. But he realized that he meant it now. He dialed again and this time Chad actually picked up. "I meant it," Jensen said.
"I know. Me too."
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When Supernatural finished, Jensen made the move to Wilmington to became a stay-at-home dad while Chad did a final season as whiny boy Lucas. On the third day Laney came into the kitchen and said, "Want eggs, papa." Jensen looked at Chad who just shrugged. She tugged at Jensen's jeans and repeated, "Eggs, papa. Eggs."
Jensen didn't cry. He'd moved past being the girl. So what if he was wearing an apron and organizing play dates with the ladies he'd met at the park?
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Kenzie turned up again on Laney's second birthday. This time she managed to call in advance and Chad invited her to the birthday party. When she picked Laney up and made silly faces, Laney cried and begged for "Je-sen" until Jensen took her from Kenzie's arms. Laney stopped crying and smiled.
Kenzie managed to choke out a "You're a family now. That's good." to Chad before racing out the door.
The End (for now)