I'm in such a bad mood.
i feel really inadequate.
really stupid.
not worthy.
not cool enough.

you know that spot in your chest where your emotionally driven brain thinks that your metaphoric heart is? mine KILLS. it has a saw and is cutting through all the layers of my body to get out and laugh in my face.

if someone comments, they are going to say "you ( Read more... )

TWO ACCEPTANCES ( Read more... )

Okay, REALLY. Why must I do this? Why oh why? Why must i think about my parents and sad things that go along with it everytime i am trying to have fun with friends? WHY?! All I am doing is ruining my fun. And it's really getting on my freaking nerves. GUHHH.

This weekend was a lot of fun, for the most part. Busy, and eventful. Lots of movie-seeing. Friends.

Friday, I went with Alex and Jenn to go see Freedom Writers. AMAZING movie. I laughed. I cried. I was inspired. =] Twas a fun night. Jenn followed me back to her house the back way. Very foggy.

Saturday & Sunday: Way too warm for January. Was in a ( Read more... )

The Year In Review [bye-bye 2006]
((first line of first entry from each month))

January: 
I miss my LH-ers. :(

February:
(how much have I changed? a loooooooot)

March: 
I am totally and completely OUT OF SHAPE.

April: 
  so catie's going to the lauralton prom. HECK YES.

May:  
soooooooooo. it rained today. no tennis meet.

June:
 i pretty much can't wait for ( Read more... )

MERRY CHRISTMAS ( Read more... )

I was just about to type that I'm ready for an intense emotion. Not romantic love. I am not ready for that. No way. I want anger or sadness or heartache. SOMETHING.
But then I was like "Well maybe I'm not feeling these because it is my turn to help those who are angry and sad." It is a time for me to stop being the one that people have to comfort ( Read more... )

The girls in my class have told me that they think that Alex and I are the cutest couple. Which is very nice and makes me happy ( Read more... )

Bowling was AWFUL this morning. For me, at least.
I completely SUCK now. I used to be pretty good. Not amazing, but not bad either. And now...now I can't get above an 80. My highest today was a 79. My average is SUPPOSED to be a 93. See the problem? It made me soooooooo pissed off. So i'm in a bad mood now. Grrrr.

But, hopefully, this funk will shake ( Read more... )

I meant to post about last weekend like....last weekend, but I never got a chance to.
[i also keep forgetting that it's ONLY wednesday]

Friday: After school, I went on a mission for a birthday present for Anna. I went to the ATM first, and I almost got into a car accident when I was trying to leave the parking lot. NOT COOOL. If only I could have ( Read more... )