Today...
Album : The Damage
Artist : Tapping The Vein
I am wearing this weight Again
It cuts like it did then
It's consuming all my thoughts
and swallowing me Again
And what you see is what's left of me
but I'm here
I didn't think I'd scare very easily
but I fear this thing
It is wearing me out and thin
Paralyzing me Again
It was vicious all the way here
I am barely alive
I wish you love
With anyone else but me
I wish you love with anyone
And all I can do I will do for you
If I'm here
I promise you I'll remember you
While I'm here
I wish you love Again
I am surrendering me
Surrendering mine
I've been talking a lot about D/s. Submission is my life choice as well as my profession. Last night, I was discussing whether I could have a "normal" relationship without the constraints of D/s. I think I need it in my life, but I don't think I need the 24/7 control that I once thought I did. I realize, now, that I fall into that role naturally when there's a dominant person around. I don't want someone to control me constantly, but I want someone that knows *how* to control me when it's necessary. I want dominance that *isn't* a strict lifestyle, but I still consider myself a total submissive. I know that a lot of people out there will think this is a cop-out, but I like it when the roles are defined, but not always on. But I'm not one that wants dominance *strictly* in the bedroom. When I find the *right* Dom/me, they'll understand what I'm saying.
Maybe.
**Amendment** I've realized that the total control that I so desperately sought at one point is not what I want anymore. It came to me the other night. I don't want someone that wants me to be their bitch, I want someone that wants me to be their friend, lover, as well as submissive. I've realized how important it is to me, that I can't have a vanilla relationship, but I don't want one that is solely stuck on one dynamic, when there are a million other ones that can be played with.
"So hold on to each other, you've gotta hold on tonight." - "Midnight Radio"
Artist : Tapping The Vein
I am wearing this weight Again
It cuts like it did then
It's consuming all my thoughts
and swallowing me Again
And what you see is what's left of me
but I'm here
I didn't think I'd scare very easily
but I fear this thing
It is wearing me out and thin
Paralyzing me Again
It was vicious all the way here
I am barely alive
I wish you love
With anyone else but me
I wish you love with anyone
And all I can do I will do for you
If I'm here
I promise you I'll remember you
While I'm here
I wish you love Again
I am surrendering me
Surrendering mine
I've been talking a lot about D/s. Submission is my life choice as well as my profession. Last night, I was discussing whether I could have a "normal" relationship without the constraints of D/s. I think I need it in my life, but I don't think I need the 24/7 control that I once thought I did. I realize, now, that I fall into that role naturally when there's a dominant person around. I don't want someone to control me constantly, but I want someone that knows *how* to control me when it's necessary. I want dominance that *isn't* a strict lifestyle, but I still consider myself a total submissive. I know that a lot of people out there will think this is a cop-out, but I like it when the roles are defined, but not always on. But I'm not one that wants dominance *strictly* in the bedroom. When I find the *right* Dom/me, they'll understand what I'm saying.
Maybe.
**Amendment** I've realized that the total control that I so desperately sought at one point is not what I want anymore. It came to me the other night. I don't want someone that wants me to be their bitch, I want someone that wants me to be their friend, lover, as well as submissive. I've realized how important it is to me, that I can't have a vanilla relationship, but I don't want one that is solely stuck on one dynamic, when there are a million other ones that can be played with.
"So hold on to each other, you've gotta hold on tonight." - "Midnight Radio"