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[ Bah. Jakkun scared me, the other night. I wasn't ready for something like that. I mean, I know he misses home and I was expecting that he'd want to go back there after graduation - that I was prepared for, I wasn't prepared for... well, I guess it makes sense. I mean, he's my partner. Just, I donno. Wasn't expecting that.
Leaves me in a bit of a catch-22. Can't say I want him to leave, that would be a lie. But I also can't say I want him to stay... I'd feel like I was in his way. I just want him to do what he wants and to be happy.
...Which brings up... no, not going to think about it. That's what I told him, though. Not going to think about it. It's not for a year, anyway.
Wonder if he meant it.
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SHUT UP, MARUI BUNTA. Fucking idiot. I need to stop spending so much time around Akaya, his stupid is getting all over me. Fucking... fuck. ]
Nao won't let me in his room, anymore - I think he's at That Age. I went in to ask if I could borrow his English dictionary, last night, and I nearly lost a limb. Teppei's no better, really - he takes twice as long in the bathroom as is really humanly possible. It's like that time when Seiichi... I'll be killed if I finish this statement Someone ought to remind them that they're boys.
Mn. I think I'm supposed to be doing something with the extended family on Saturday for my birthday - think Dad forgot two things: 1. my birthday is Friday, 2. tournaments coming up this weekend. Oh well - I'll just be late. But, my dad's convinced that since I'm the eldest son, my 18th birthday has to be some sort of coming of age extravaganza, or something. Who knows what's going on in his head. Jakkun, he even said you couldn't come along. Don't know what this is about.
Leaves me in a bit of a catch-22. Can't say I want him to leave, that would be a lie. But I also can't say I want him to stay... I'd feel like I was in his way. I just want him to do what he wants and to be happy.
...Which brings up... no, not going to think about it. That's what I told him, though. Not going to think about it. It's not for a year, anyway.
Wonder if he meant it.
...
SHUT UP, MARUI BUNTA. Fucking idiot. I need to stop spending so much time around Akaya, his stupid is getting all over me. Fucking... fuck. ]
Nao won't let me in his room, anymore - I think he's at That Age. I went in to ask if I could borrow his English dictionary, last night, and I nearly lost a limb. Teppei's no better, really - he takes twice as long in the bathroom as is really humanly possible. It's like that time when Seiichi... I'll be killed if I finish this statement Someone ought to remind them that they're boys.
Mn. I think I'm supposed to be doing something with the extended family on Saturday for my birthday - think Dad forgot two things: 1. my birthday is Friday, 2. tournaments coming up this weekend. Oh well - I'll just be late. But, my dad's convinced that since I'm the eldest son, my 18th birthday has to be some sort of coming of age extravaganza, or something. Who knows what's going on in his head. Jakkun, he even said you couldn't come along. Don't know what this is about.