*click click, tap, SMASH*

[morbid_harlet]

LA. Hmm.... It's been a while... very long time yes... But I guess I did break the computer... Silly me.... I'm creaming over this suicide girl book Matt bought... Man they are fucking hot!!!! *drool

Comments

[metaphorism]

What's RUSH? Is it that Popper stuff from the porn store?

[morbid_harlet]

Indeed it is. I hate the stuff, but it was one of the novelties of the night. I didn't have any either, I hate it fullstop.

[elly_chanel]

glad you had an awesome time.
happy birthday.
stay safe.
love elle xox

help me

[matthewluke]

ren this is the only way i can say what i need to say, i'm so screwed in the head at the moment i dont know what way is up. i can't stop thinking about you and i can't believe i screwed up so bad. l know you told me why your doing this but i still don't get it maybe i'm stupid. but i know one thing if you could only tell me what to do to get you back i would do it. if you could tell me what to change i would. i'm so lost in this mess trying to figure it out that it's driving me insane plz ren i really want you back. you mean so much to me, i just wish i could go back in time to our first fight and do it all different, i am so sorry

as above

[matthewluke]

i didn't mean to get your mum involved she'd told that you'd left already i wasn't trying to trap you, i just needed to talk to someone that knows you as well as i dom, she might've been the wrong person but she was the only one around. our friends can only offer empty sounding comiserations and i needed more than that.i get carried away when i ring you thats why i'm writing this, the last thing i wanted to do while we're on this break is to harass you, but every time i ring you, no matter how much i prepare myself to just listen and to be understanding i fall apart and that only makes things harder for both of us.as i write this libby is running around my parents place making pig noises i can't tell if she is talking or being stupid. i wish i could be there with you to comfort you ren but i know if i was i'd say or do the wrong thing.

and again

[matthewluke]

i stayed at my olds last night dads in nsw at the mo, and mum is completely useless to talk to about this stuff. the main reason i'm doing this is just so i can get it all down in front of me before it's said i have done so many rewrites it's not funny. sorry i called you but noone knew where you were so i couldn't get someone to let you know about these messages. i hope you take the time to read these ren, i do trust you and i never did believe that you're cheating, but i had to ask only because i'm trying to make sense of this whole
deal. part of the problem is that i'm so desperate to talk to someone that i ask the wrong people and the first thing they say is it sounds like your cheating. there is something going on ren but the more i think about it the more i think that it's not for me to work out