I dont know what happened but i lost a few friends, and my whole summer got shoved down the drain. Apparently i was being a bitch all day, but i dont know or care anymore. Maybe i was being a bitch, i didnt think so, i still dont, but i dont know maybe i was. Watever.

~ Never look at naked women on the internet with a hot guy who has a girlfriend when your own grlfriend is on the other side of the country.
Yeah, thats advice for the day. Not much else to say. Smoked yesterday, chillin today or going to the beach or something, I dunno. I gotta watch my dogs tho for $. Woopie.

Dude Sparky you need to come home NOW! I'm reallu fucking high and horney. Lol, im so not gonna rnememember this/

In life we steer our boats across many oceans in search of the treasures of our dreams, but after searching for so long our port passes by, and there we are paddleing against the current trying to get what has already passed us forever. Certain things have passed me forever. Certain people will never come back. Certain feelings though, will be with ( Read more... )

I couldn't even wait until I got home to update, lucky for my my teacher saw my crying earlier so she let me use her computer no questions asked. I just dont know anything anymore. i want Ncik to read what I wrote last night, but then again I don't. I'm not going to delete the entry because I know that I shouldn't but there is still so much I have ( Read more... )

Hey Nick, since I know now that your reading this all the time I thought I'd write you a little note. You know, I'm really fucking tired of all this bullshit you cause. I dont care about anything anymore. Cut yourself, kill yourself, jump off a fucking bridge for all I care. I don't beleive any of anything anymore. You told me you liked me, and I ( Read more... )

There is more written in my diary than anyone could ever know...
May 16
Spinning 'round in circles cannot stop the pain,
Screaming children's voices torment in my brain,
So much hate that I can't stand beneath the pain,
No more sunlight just the nightmares and the rain,
And we are many tortured children born of Cain.
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See me sit alone in ( Read more... )

I guess Nick was reading my LJ. And I'm the dumb one who didnt friend lock any of my entries. Well, I hope you read this one. I'm not mad at you, you didn't make me cry, I dont think your an asshole, and I think I like you more than you can ever possibly know. I doubt you'll even get to see this entry. If you do I hope you comment, but again, I ( Read more... )

This whole weekend, starting thursday actually, I was at Matt and Angies house. I made three new friends and got to know Scotch better, which is awesome, because I wanted to get to know him, hes a cool person. I met him in Mr. Rayams office and I was fucked the hell up so he pretty much got the long and short of my whole life's story. He's got the ( Read more... )

You know as time goes by life becomes more and more of a dissappointment. As a child I was brought up to believ that life would be extraordinary. The rain would fall when I cried, the sun would shine when I smiled and if I really wanted it, there would always be a way to find and get it. Delusion, all of it. My life just keeps going, and nothing ( Read more... )