okay so today i am actually happy.  i woke up and i was just happy with myself.  yesterday i fasted and worked a 10 hr day. and at work all i do is move around and get people stuff. so that burned some mega cals.  Today I have an apt with my doctor.  I think they are going to up my dose in adderall ( which for everyone who has no clue what that is ( Read more... )

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okay so i am so motivated today.. im at the college and im determind to get back into the groove. i am going to do a 2 day fast to teach my body a lesson. and i am going to clense my body with a bunch of water and tea.

does anyone want to join me?

blackberry update..

i feel like al my updates have been blackberry updates..

so today has been so horrible.. i stayed hme sick. and i just couldnt stop eating.. i ordered a fucking pizza!! what the hell is wrong with me. well i took 3 laxatives and if i work out maybe ill get back on the right track.

blackberry update..

i am so depressed right now. i woke up this morning and didnt lose any weight. god i knew this was going to happen.. right when i get on a good path, all the sudden. im so depressed.

help anyone.. how do i break this

 so today was actually really nice.  I woke up around 9ish. and just layed in bed.  Then i went to the gym around 11:00 and worked out and did some abs work till about 1:00.  Then i Went to class, and I have about 30 mins till I go back.  Today is my fast day.  I've gotton over the whole FAST word. I think it scares alot of people, like they cant ( Read more... )

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blackberry update

so tonight was supposed to be my fast day and i freaking blew it.. i had 1/2 a cup of non fat chili anf some pear slices. i fel so fat right now. so i took 2 laxatives. oh well i will fast tomorrow to teach myself better control.

hope everyone is doing well w. their goals.

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