I hate my family.

[morenowagainftw]

I hate them as much as I love them. I hate that I still care for them. Or I hate that I hate them. I want one or the other, not both. Who knew it was possible to hate and love people at the same time that you weren't romantically involved with

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[tannessa]

I can TOTALLY relate. My whole immediate family (aunts) and their kids (cousins) drive me nuts. Theyre all VERY religious, and don't get me wrong, I'm a spiritual person, but I dont like having it shoved down my throat. If I told them about *my* life..half of them would probably fall over with heart attacks.

eh..que sera sera. I guess. =)

[morenowagainftw]

I literally could not talk about 90% of my life, because it is composed of things they would not approve of, though granted they are varying degrees of acceptance. So it made for a very uncomfortable, miserable, awkward conversation--exactly the kind I try to avoid by not contacting them. Now in this particular case, it wasn't my aunt's fault...but it really set me off, although she didn't have anything to do with it in a consciouss way.

...but my parents, yep, they've got the super religeon thing going on. And they know some of what is going on in my life and they refuse to acknowledge it really, like me having a boyfriend. It doesn't help that the boyfriend is older than my father. And if they knew everything else like my adult modeling, I think they'd really just lose it.

There's a lot of bad blood between me and my parents in particular, and every time I think I'm getting at a point where I can visit them or call them every once in a while, I get some kind of reminder or some obvious setback.

[atlgangstaho]

Yeah... I know how you feel too. Last night I had a huge fight with my parents about moving to Philadelphia and my mom kept saying I should stay here because I shouldn't leave the family. The whole time I was thinking, "Fuck family, all you do is make my life miserable," but then my dad started crying and I felt really bad. I don't want to hurt them, but I can't stand being around them either. It's a tough situation.

[morenowagainftw]

Yeah, we both know I can relate. But the best thing I ever did was move out (well, the second time I was kicked out) because if I ever want any hope of having even a marginally good relationship with my parents and my family, I cannot be under the same roof as them. I think you will find, hard as it is, wherever you go...that moving out is the best thing for yourself and the best thing for your relationship with them. Distance and time gives people perspective and sometimes, that's a good thing.

[spymonski]

Heya Matt - you are welcome to stay at our place any time.

Its a good thing you have friends to think of as family, eh? :)

[morenowagainftw]

Why, thank you.

[modmoda]

Awww you should come to Texas to see your friends! I'm going to be in LA December 8-11, will you be there by chance??

[morenowagainftw]

I e-mailed you. Yeah, I'm not going to be in LA again until late December. But I am still pondering a visit to Texas.