i bought some moccasins. they make me feel like i should have a glass of brandy and be sitting next to a fire in a large armchair ( Read more... )

i live for the day when someone listens to me, like really listens ( Read more... )

i always have a headache.

i'm confused.
what does one do with feelings that are to go nowhere?
what does one do with feelings that can't possibly live in a barren land?

biking is a newfound love of mine.
i absolutely adore gliding down the trail, sparkly with recycled glass and framed by bunches of ivy and black-eyed susans. the wind blows my hair back, i can feel my legs working and my mind just frees itself. it's easy to think, easy to breathe and that's more than i've been able to say in awhile.

one of my favorite places has to be on goose pond in my kayak ( Read more... )

oh god, i just finished eclipse and i cried so hard.
jacob deserves to win.

"he's like a drug for you bella.
i see that you can't live without him now. it's too late.
i would have been healthier for you, not a drug.
i would have been the air, the sun."

i'm so angry, i'm so nervous, i'm so on edge all the time.
i just want something to go right, really, really, really right.
i know what it should be. it'll never happen with the way things are now.

i finally know what it's like to want something so badly, but i have no idea how to go about getting it. shit.

i feel left behind.