I was just thinking this morning that city life for me was so cold and lonely. I didn't have many friends at all. There are millions of people walking around and nobody to talk to. They don't make eye contact and if they do, it is dangerous. The people that will look at you are crazy. I think I was one of the crazies. In the country,rural if you ( Read more... )

Oh dear. That whiskey can get away from you. I only had two drinks but I think I poured too strong. obviously. I ate an entire bag of cheetos and watched a crappy movie on t.v. and had a ball. I called Shae at some point but don't know exactly what I said. I think it was funny and good. Oh well. I am not going to eat or drink today to get things ( Read more... )

I am having a pretty good day so far. I am making some peanut butter cookies for Darrell and Alecia to take to Whitewater. They will be fine. I am not packing tons of food. Becky is. She worries too much. If they run out of food they can always go to the quick stop up the street. Shae has to work all weekend so he will not be able to attend. I am ( Read more... )

Mike wrote to Shae via e-mail. It was total crap. Disjointed and silly. His way of seeking a guilt free re-entry into Shae's life. I talked to Shae about it and he is handling it so well. He was angry and let that anger out in a healthy way. I pray that Mike never comes close to Shae's world. He won't like what he gets. You just can't stay away ( Read more... )

Haven't felt much like writing. I am not sure why. It could be that this is day number four of the quit smoking campagne. I am doing well. I have the lozenges for the cravings. I am going to stop drinking wine in the evenings next. That may be harder than the smokes ( Read more... )

Darrell finally got his website up. It only took two weeks and four programs. Wow. Now to refine it. That may take a bit longer.

It is so dark outside, it seems as though night has fallen. That means a storm is headed this way. The satalite is out so no t.v. just now. It is 86 degrees and muggy as crap. There is thunder in the distance and the rain is hitting on the tin roof in sporatic drifts. Should be a good night to stay in. Darrell is trying to get the web site up and ( Read more... )

As I read my last few entries I noticed that they all had a negative twist to them. I am going to try to be more positive in my writing even if it means I have to try at it. Yesterday I talked to Laura on AOL and she gave me the website to her journal and book. It is quite good for her age. She is a very bright girl. She has many hurdles to ( Read more... )

Every morning when I wake up it is a puzzlement to figure out what part of me will hurt more. Today I am actually pretty much pain free. I have a bit of a leg ache today. Usually it is my hip that gets to me, or my back. I am so fragile lately. I want to do areobics but that is out of the question. I am not sure how it started or if it is just ( Read more... )

Monday mornings are always a let down. I think it is because we turn on the news first. It had so many stories about missing, hurt, crazy children. One child was killed in NYC by her nine year old friend. That is dasturdley. It showed the church service. Nothing to say about that. One child drown. One child lost, stolen, or killed in Aruba. No sign ( Read more... )