[Reborn drabble] Five Years to Realize
omg it's valentine's day and everything, too. please pardon the emo T_T
as much as i adore teenage gokudera's "I R RIGTH HAND NOT U >:E", some part of me wants to believe this is the kind of importance he's shooting for.
I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.
Five Years to Realize
It takes five years for Sawada Tsuna to learn that what Gokudera has always felt for him can be called love.
Before, it was easy to call it "hero worship," maybe even "infatuation," or something like "an embarrassing obsession."
But somewhere down the line, whatever feelings Gokudera had for him when they first met grew into something solid and real and no longer desperate to prove it exists.
Somehow, the "GOOD MORNING TENTH!!!" that made you want to run screaming for help has turned into a simple nod of acknowledgment... or at best a quiet and professional "Good morning, Tenth" that only reassures you everything is already laid out, and the rest of the day is going to go well.
The radiant grin you used to get when you walked into a room has grown thinner over the years - now it's just a sparkle in his eye that appears when he sees you, and a small silent sigh of relief upon seeing you intact and awake and ready to start a brand new day.
Tsuna is grateful: he doesn't have to think about that kind of love. He doesn't have to worry that he's going to screw up or fail to meet certain expectations as "the Tenth."
Five years after the day they met, they are no longer children; there are no more declarations, they have more important things to think about. Gokudera's feelings have become something constant, something Tsuna never misses because it is never out of sight.
Therefore, though Tsuna recognizes it as love, he is never able to fully understand it. Gokudera himself knows that even if some things can be put to words, they can never be fully explained. It takes five more years after the realization, before Gokudera could show exactly what kind of love it is...
It's the kind of love that stays even after all the mourners have left. The kind that keeps you alive in thought and deed, that jealously holds everything about you dear. The kind that says your name like a prayer.
The kind of love that lays flowers on your grave every day. And even after that five-year ritual has passed, after your name has left his lips, still comes every year to visit on the day you met.
as much as i adore teenage gokudera's "I R RIGTH HAND NOT U >:E", some part of me wants to believe this is the kind of importance he's shooting for.
I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.
Five Years to Realize
It takes five years for Sawada Tsuna to learn that what Gokudera has always felt for him can be called love.
Before, it was easy to call it "hero worship," maybe even "infatuation," or something like "an embarrassing obsession."
But somewhere down the line, whatever feelings Gokudera had for him when they first met grew into something solid and real and no longer desperate to prove it exists.
Somehow, the "GOOD MORNING TENTH!!!" that made you want to run screaming for help has turned into a simple nod of acknowledgment... or at best a quiet and professional "Good morning, Tenth" that only reassures you everything is already laid out, and the rest of the day is going to go well.
The radiant grin you used to get when you walked into a room has grown thinner over the years - now it's just a sparkle in his eye that appears when he sees you, and a small silent sigh of relief upon seeing you intact and awake and ready to start a brand new day.
Tsuna is grateful: he doesn't have to think about that kind of love. He doesn't have to worry that he's going to screw up or fail to meet certain expectations as "the Tenth."
Five years after the day they met, they are no longer children; there are no more declarations, they have more important things to think about. Gokudera's feelings have become something constant, something Tsuna never misses because it is never out of sight.
Therefore, though Tsuna recognizes it as love, he is never able to fully understand it. Gokudera himself knows that even if some things can be put to words, they can never be fully explained. It takes five more years after the realization, before Gokudera could show exactly what kind of love it is...
It's the kind of love that stays even after all the mourners have left. The kind that keeps you alive in thought and deed, that jealously holds everything about you dear. The kind that says your name like a prayer.
The kind of love that lays flowers on your grave every day. And even after that five-year ritual has passed, after your name has left his lips, still comes every year to visit on the day you met.