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"Firstly, I'd like to talk about love. Now in recent days, it is led to belive that love is a mind-retardeding chemical imbalance that is derived from crying enough or paying enough and in the long run can be cured with a dose of lawyers. It's that childish dream that most people gave up on becuase they're too busy fucking or creating intriguing ( Read more... )

i ate shrimp today. this is the first dead creature i have put into my body for as long as i can remember. my hair, including my eyebrows and eyelashes, is falling out. i have to add some sort of food like that to my diet, or it will continue to fall out, and i will go bald. i am having a very hard time coping with this. *big frown ( Read more... )

school is over. sam is living with my parents and i. I JUST BOUGHT TOM PETTY & THE HEARTBREAKERS TICKETS.

i am not a teenager anymore.

sam and i more or less had a bad fight. we're ok now. i love him, i really do, more than anything, and i want to have his panda bear.

the movie i was in won. i am so fucking proud of nathan and colin.

what a fucking slap in the face.

i bought myself some frozen yogurt. i cried while i ate it. this was how i celebrated my birthday, the day you're supposed to celebrate your existence. the only thing i got out today is my thoughts on not wanting to exist anymore reaffirmed. it's wednesday, but wednesday will be full of school work and disassembling things, so it was celebrated ( Read more... )

i've put everything on the table ( Read more... )

i had finished my shower. i had scrubbed and rinsed, and the objective was then to get dry. i poked my arm out of the shower to grab my towel so i could dry off. i dry off inside the shower as to not get our bathmat wet, as wet things tend to mold, and moldy things tend to smell bad. as my towel was soaking up the excess water, the shower continued ( Read more... )

i think it's starting again. i tried to eat a baked potato last night, but i had failed everyone that day. sam, my mom, my grandmother. i couldn't eat the inside of it. i scraped it out into a seperate container and ate the outside. the outside is mostly fiber and i bargained that if i threw the inside out, i could eat the outside. the inside would ( Read more... )