we shall not cease from exploration

[moschus]

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My first baby son Nevada was born on May 18 and died ten weeks later.  This is the space of time when his memory for me is especially primal and vivid, experienced on multiple levels. It's tough to explain.

The worst years of my life (in order) would be the year following Nevada's death and then the year following my separation (and, in a distant

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I cannot imagine you in a full-on outfit

[communicatrix]

Since I've known you, you've been the epitome of effortless chic. (Although I'm just now starting to realize that there is some effort that goes into that, too. Gotta get on it one of these years.)

Happy Mother's Day to you, little mama. I am not much for holidays, but I salute any of my sisters who has taken up the charge, with a special note of wonder for those who, like you, have done it in multiples, and well.

[movingfinger]

The people you can hang out with, without talking are your best people, always. True for everyone. I've begun to think quiet companionship is actually a learned skill these days.

[maggie_writes]

I wish I had a profound comment or something, but all I want to say is that I really enjoyed reading this.

[recalcitrant]

That is my favourite TS Eliot poem, too. I wiki'd it and discovered it was actually about the war and England, but I love that it has so many meanings to others.

It's nice that you have come full circle to sitting and hanging with a special person in a cafe. Your past experiences will serve well to remind you to make different choices based upon those experiences. I think we can appreciate the good when we've gone through bad.

What's also pretty cool is what you've written, about just hanging out and being, is great advice for your kids when they grow up and are choosing partners.

Good you're getting out of snootyville. I think places like that are harmful for people. I find the areas i'm attracted to have a nice mix of different cultures and people arne't fashion plates. I just hate that gentrification causes the wanna bes to flock over and do a designer Disneyland version of what made the place special in the first place.

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I'm very sorry about the loss of your son. My baby boy is 10.5 weeks old today, and reading your post made me cry.