Holding in way too much, and nobody left to let it out on (without making things worse). So again, I'm looking for a painless way out...the coward's way out. When I find it, well..

Who would I really be betraying? I feel like i'm betraying people right now by not taking action. I see a small light at the end of this tunnel, yet I am moving away from it. I have become more of a religious man in the past few years. It gives me periods of hope, but not yet what I seek...consistent hope. I hold myself to impossible ( Read more... )

Ahh! So much to do! And I can't get myself to do it! For example, last night I wanted to do my postlab (due this morning) and at least start on my huge history paper due Friday. Nope.. I waited...slept...watched TV...then started on the lab. Unfortunately, the lab took about 3 hours. Basically, i had to figure out the location of restriction ( Read more... )

So i went to the Bio Career Night last night.. My interest in podiatry has gone up, after talking to a podiatrist who was there last night. I went to it to look for non-doctor people...cuz i know what a career as a doctor is like. But i had never thought seriously about podiatry. It's actually a seperate doctorate degree...a D.P.M., Doctor of ( Read more... )

Well I had my laugh for today. Apparently my Critter country managers got word that I've been lobbying to get back to Thunder by summer.. Well, all of a sudden, their old rhetoric (i.e. "Mohsin, we can't train you on another ride...you're not available enough.....we have to train the B's (higher seniority...when in fact they've been training ( Read more... )

The cycle continues....guess which part of it I'm in now ( Read more... )

I had something I wanted to say, but I changed my mind. Maybe I'm just too forgiving...if there is such a thing. But sometimes I just gotta let things go, and I'll let this one go because the good outweighed the bad...as it usually does in this case ( Read more... )

Well today I put on a happy face for the whole day...for the first in a long time... Am I completely happy? No...but the bad times are really taking their toll on my mentally, emotionally, and even physically (with the immense lack of sleep lately). So luckily i had a free day..no class. Did some errands..went clothes shopping..which despite my ( Read more... )

Another lonely Valentine's Day passing by soon....not soon enough. As if I don't have enough to worry about...

Well i worked out for the first time in 3 months yesterday. Did a little weight lifting and a little running on the treadmill, trying to ease my way back into a routine. It was a little depressing seeing how far i had fallen strength-wise, but i can get it back. Lakers won last night...doing just fine without Kobe ( Read more... )