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Maybe I set it up to be disappointed. Maybe I like feeling like "the only one who gets it." Maybe if I associated with people who live it instead of just preaching it, I wouldn't feel such a need to keep those parts of me hidden; maybe I wouldn't feel a need to keep those parts of me at all

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This is me trying to acknowledge the privilege being the "special white girl" gives me (see any of Sofia Coppola's movies) and grappling with this acknowledgment.

This is me realizing that personal integrity doesn't cherish delusion.