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from the beginning
i started this journal some years ago when i was wondering if i should be depressed or whether depression would get in the way of life as i was trying to rebuild it at the time and had made a substantial dent in the devastation that had been life in the years before this journal began and i believe i decided, as i always had in the past, that we ( Read more... ) -
all for the birds (for now)
i still get lonely ( Read more... ) -
start again
yes, i may be insane (or crazy, but a madman survives in the madhouse much better than even the wisest of prophets (what?... you expected me to link myself there?... find your own leader, yawl), or jesus, even (aye?... catch me if you can sang the song of the madmad and he chased the melody beyond all time... catch me if you can sang the song ( Read more... ) -
log, ad infinitum
date?... see above... yes, doing it again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again, again ( Read more... ) -
one more time (etc)
1. under 200 evermore (raven's laugh)
2. to be . . . -
pathetic creativity
in my better moods, i laugh at the pathos i pour into this journal, just as i laugh at the buddha belly i've cultivated on and off (currently on) over the last couple of years, this journal, besides being home to some of the most self-indulgent emo rhymes i've ever written, blah blah blah blah blah ( Read more... ) -
who cares
who cares ( Read more... ) -
to remember a time
i don't want to cry anymore ( Read more... ) -
and the tears almost come
the tears almost come ( Read more... ) -
the roach side of frustration
yes, fine pickle of fish this move has been so far... i sit here counting the days off this life as i breath in powerful poisons in order to kill the roaches living in this building anywhere near this apartment and deter them from returning as it seems they were used to doing... the bedroom is off-limits tonight, probably tomorrow night as well... ( Read more... )