I feel like writing tonight, like letting the words come from me arbitrarily and freely enough to not mean anything. Because they fly in my head - words, memories, events - and they all blur into one mass of hyperactivity that keeps me going and going all night until all I want to do is release it somehow. But I can't. I can't escape my own head ( Read more... )

New Years was alright...nothing to tell the grandkids about. It happened. Its a new year. Its always like this with me - I'll be super excited for something to happen and when it finally does, it doesn't meet any of the expectations I had so I'll get disappointed with it. Maybe I should just screw all my expectations ( Read more... )

Merry merry christmas christmas. I had a pretty bien christmas actually...not much in the material things but more than enough in other aspects of my life. And then today my mom brought home half of Bloomingdales with her because of her discount, so we had a mini fashion show in our living room. And I say that ironically. Work was a piece of pie ( Read more... )

How amazing is the movie Sixteen Candle. Girl likes guy from afar, guy knows nothing of her until one day he randomly finds a note she's written about him, then he pursues her quietly but persistently with her wondering all the while if he even knows that she's alive and finally, at the end of this quirky movies with absolutely irrelevant ( Read more... )

Right, so I had a dream that I was a part of the A Team and they were sewing me a cape and everything. Rodger was in it as the Underwear Man and Dror was in it as Feather Girl and really it amounted to nothing except they were making me a cape with the letter A on it. Ya. I don't know what thats about.

I caught that stupid cold thing going around. Go me. And I started at Diedrich's today...the medicine made everything go in slow motion; I swear all the people that work there probably think I'm the dumbest person alive. But I felt pretty comfortable there, and it wasn't too different from Cafe de France except they actually clock in on a computer ( Read more... )

So yesterday was just bad until the late hours of the evening, but it was bad. Today is progressively better, I've taken care of the things I needed to take care of except for stupid Diedrichs and the crazy "phone test" results. That test was so dumb, if I didn't pass it then my character is REALLY in trouble. But I need that job because Cafe de ( Read more... )

I had a pretty good "Office Space" moment today. So I'm at work study, and she sends me to go print some things out. No problem, right? Not if the EFFING printer is a piece of CRAP. Its a stupid Laserjet, and those are supposed to be good, right? This was like the devil printer from hell. The paper jammed like fifty times, and twice it jammed right ( Read more... )

My birthday was pleasant in every way it could have been. People congratulated me, made me cookies gave me free cake, sang to me. What the point of that crazy birthday song is I just don't know...you've got people singing the same three phrases to you while you stand by and look anywhere except in the direction of the people because you're just ( Read more... )

Palpable desire
Forces the intangible
Surge
To the surface of my
Wanting Body
And the while
the beating yearns for
a close companion
To match
For comfort
I Can Give
It Takes Two.