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Feb 23, 2010 21:26

these are my confessions
tell me a secret about me or you or someone else. or just tell me something on your mind. anon is on ip is off. post as many times as you want.

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anonymous February 24 2010, 02:46:29 UTC

YOU ARE SECRETLY IN LOVE WITH YOUR HUSBAND, MIURA HARUMA. ♥

mothers February 24 2010, 02:54:34 UTC

NO

THAT'S NOT THE REAL ME

psych 8D

anonymous February 24 2010, 03:42:36 UTC

DENIALS OF LOVE. >:D

anonymous February 24 2010, 02:46:58 UTC

kekeke.

mothers February 24 2010, 02:54:56 UTC

fufufufu

anonymous February 24 2010, 03:41:31 UTC

I'm growing to hate my body more and more every day. I never really cared for it in the first place, but now it's actually starting to make me upset. It's odd because I always thought that I'd be the last person in the world to get like this; I actually think about not eating sometimes, and every time it happens it just baffles me. I have a friend who's finally starting to recover from years of fighting eating disorders and now it disturbs me how I'm suddenly starting to become what she was a few years ago.

I love food and I hate catching myself thinking "food is evil". It's pretty upsetting.

mothers February 24 2010, 16:39:41 UTC

to be honest, i've been the same way for a while. i hated my body, i hated the way i looked & i never really took the time to care for it, about it because of that mindset i had. like, no matter what i'd do, i'll always look the same. whenever i find myself eating too much, i mentally get frustrated & just swear off eating for a week & like you said, it's upsetting to get to that point.

but lately, i've been getting into exercising. i haven't been able to do it much recently because of work & stuff but.. it really does help you feel good. not just about your body, but about yourself in general.

i'd really hate to see you go through something like your friend did for years so i.. would really wish you go see someone about this. i know you can do it

anonymous March 1 2010, 03:26:15 UTC

i wonder if you ever think about me. i miss you so much sometimes :(

mothers March 1 2010, 03:30:51 UTC

i miss a lot of friends that i drifted away from! :[ gimme a pm

anonymous March 7 2010, 06:57:38 UTC

I have so many things I want to let out and say. So many that it's painful, and they make me worry incessantly. A lot of these I hold back because I worry about coming off as passive-aggressive or something of the like (and that's just not cool), and all of them I hold back because I don't want to annoy/anger you. Sometimes I ask myself if I may have become obsessed with you because the thought "Does she hate me? Do I annoy her? I just want to have fun with her and for her to have fun with me." is always on my mind. I get so paranoid that I find myself interpreting your innocent teasing as out-right bullying and then I get angry at myself for even thinking that about you. Sometimes I think "I wish she would just be absolutely honest with me" but then I get scared of what the results might be and then I get angry at myself for always dwelling on the subject and for even thinking of these things at all in the first place ( ... )

mothers March 8 2010, 00:40:31 UTC

ah.. wow. i'm.. so at a loss of words right now. first of all, i'd like to apologize that i've made you feel so paranoid or insecure or anything. i honestly had no idea someone felt this way at all. i'm sure whoever you are, i truly enjoy your company & your kindness & friendship from the bottom of my heart.

i'd like to know what i can do to help reassure you that i sincerely feel this way, but i.. have no idea who you are haha :[ you're probably not comfortable with letting me know yet but please know that i am grateful for you no matter what. please don't think yourself as a hindrance to me. i love all my friends & i really don't feel annoyed with them or have ill feelings for any of them

b-but again, i'm sorry for causing such confusion. skdjhf i hope i can help fix that somehow

anonymous March 8 2010, 02:48:57 UTC

Mm. That alone makes me feel a little better, and I'm glad that you didn't take it badly. Thank you.

Perhaps eventually I'll work up the courage to reveal myself, but now is not yet the time. Maybe someday.

mothers March 8 2010, 02:56:47 UTC

please, you don't need to thank me. i'm seriously sorry to have put you through that

& you don't need to worry about revealing yourself. whenever you're ready is fine by me. just know i'll always be here for you no matter what, okay? if you feel unsure about anything again you can comment here or something. i'll come running