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I feel so helpless right now, im crying for various reasons.
i cant help one of my best friends when she needs me, i dont know how to help her or what to tell her to make it better, i cant make it beetter im useless. im not good at this. it feels like im yelling at her when im trying to help but im not im not trying to be mean about it i just dont want anything to happen to her.
and then i talked about what i am not suppose to be talking about im suppose to be forgetting vits so hard
fuck it. i cant stop. im fucking pathetic.
i want to not think about it. i cant help it.
"if you could erase your memory would you?"
"yea haha"
"no im being like serious here would you?"
"i dunno maybe, maybe not."
"Ok so if i told you i knew of a place would you?"
"well you dont so no"
"yes i do!"
"Do you? Is it in the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind? Like do i have to go in that movie to have it done?"
"shh dont talkt o me right now"
Thats why ashly makes me laugh.
And talking about sexual shit,
"it usually takes two"
"what do you mean?"
"Well.."(puts hand ACCIDENTLY towards salt shaker)
"dude why did you just point to the salt shaker, are you and it gonna go home together or something"
"no i meant some poeple do it on their own alot,my hand just went towards the salt shaker"
"yea sure"
"OO im wet, wow that came out wrong"
i cant help one of my best friends when she needs me, i dont know how to help her or what to tell her to make it better, i cant make it beetter im useless. im not good at this. it feels like im yelling at her when im trying to help but im not im not trying to be mean about it i just dont want anything to happen to her.
and then i talked about what i am not suppose to be talking about im suppose to be forgetting vits so hard
fuck it. i cant stop. im fucking pathetic.
i want to not think about it. i cant help it.
"if you could erase your memory would you?"
"yea haha"
"no im being like serious here would you?"
"i dunno maybe, maybe not."
"Ok so if i told you i knew of a place would you?"
"well you dont so no"
"yes i do!"
"Do you? Is it in the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind? Like do i have to go in that movie to have it done?"
"shh dont talkt o me right now"
Thats why ashly makes me laugh.
And talking about sexual shit,
"it usually takes two"
"what do you mean?"
"Well.."(puts hand ACCIDENTLY towards salt shaker)
"dude why did you just point to the salt shaker, are you and it gonna go home together or something"
"no i meant some poeple do it on their own alot,my hand just went towards the salt shaker"
"yea sure"
"OO im wet, wow that came out wrong"