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it seems like everywhere i go
the more i see, the less i know
I think i'm changing. Im not sure if it's good or bad yet, but I've been feeling like a completely different person. Before, i used to feel this weird need to be around spencer 24/7 and id freak out if we didn't see each other but lately ive had so much of my own stuff going on and i actually kind of like it. i like being busy with school and i like the fact that i work almost 33 hours this week. i love spencer and i know that it hasnt changed, but i feel like i need time to myself too. hes a big part of my life, but i dont want him to be my whole life. Ive also been really wanting to spend more time with friends and family more. i love my family and i feel like i havent seen any friends in a LONG time. Ive also stopped caring about a lot of stuff... this could also be good or bad.. im not sure yet. Little things don't bother me as much as they used to and i dont really care if someone likes me or not anymore. Before i used to freak out and try to figure out what i did wrong and now my attitude is, "you dont like me? whatever." the only thing that hasnt changed is that i still love editing. i feel obsessed. haha i guess i picked the right career. i dont know if its because of my job or whatever, but i have a way easier time making small talk and not being so shy. i dont know, i just feel different.
the more i see, the less i know
I think i'm changing. Im not sure if it's good or bad yet, but I've been feeling like a completely different person. Before, i used to feel this weird need to be around spencer 24/7 and id freak out if we didn't see each other but lately ive had so much of my own stuff going on and i actually kind of like it. i like being busy with school and i like the fact that i work almost 33 hours this week. i love spencer and i know that it hasnt changed, but i feel like i need time to myself too. hes a big part of my life, but i dont want him to be my whole life. Ive also been really wanting to spend more time with friends and family more. i love my family and i feel like i havent seen any friends in a LONG time. Ive also stopped caring about a lot of stuff... this could also be good or bad.. im not sure yet. Little things don't bother me as much as they used to and i dont really care if someone likes me or not anymore. Before i used to freak out and try to figure out what i did wrong and now my attitude is, "you dont like me? whatever." the only thing that hasnt changed is that i still love editing. i feel obsessed. haha i guess i picked the right career. i dont know if its because of my job or whatever, but i have a way easier time making small talk and not being so shy. i dont know, i just feel different.