im so unbelievably frustrated right now, i dont know what to do.  i shouldnt feel intimidated.... im freaking 19 years old.  im not intimidated, but im certainly not feeling at all like i belong.  whatever.  hopefully things change.  i dont think im going to say anything about it now because i dont want to be that person. ill just give them the ( Read more... )

spencer's starting to think about where he wants to transfer to.  that's great, but i dont see the point because he's still like 2 years away from finishing up his GE's.  plus, he only has like, 1/3 of his music classes done ( Read more... )

I felt kinda bummed the past couple days and i go out to lunch with spencer, tony, danny, and corrie and my mood completely changes and i feel happy again.

anyway, me and spencer are hanging out on saturday and hes planning something and he says the whole day comes in a basket and its the only hint he'll give me.  im excited!!

im also excited ( Read more... )

its me and spencer's 2 year anniversary!!!  =)  i cant believe we've been going out for that long... it seems a lot shorter to me... lol ( Read more... )

FINALLY!!!!  first dirtbiking trip of the year baby, yeah!!!

im not yet sure where we're going yet.... i doubt ocotillo because its so darn crowded during holidays. =/  a couple years ago i was almost run over by some stupid idiot who doesnt know how to drive and someone always dies at shell reef when its full.

i seriously hope malcolm comes ( Read more... )

honestly, absolutely nothing has been going on lately, but i consider that sort of a blessing because i dont mind it when everything is normal and stable.  anyway, all i did today was relax, sit around, and talk on the phone.  i wish jess would come back home ( Read more... )

i love my job because i get to take JD with me whenever i want =)  i feel weird though because im one of the youngest people working there.  everyone else is already in their 20's ( Read more... )

uh.... things have been good and bad and i was talking to jessica yesterday about and i realized im getting to the point where im feeling more and more apathetic.  for a couple days its been okay so i dont really know what to say about anything.  what ive probably learned most from working is to seperate my personal life and my work life.  i can be ( Read more... )

sunshine go away today
i dont feel much like dancing

i decided that every time im frustrated instead of pouting or crying or feeling sorry for myself, im going to the gym because at least ill be doing something.  crying and pouting gets me no where.

edit:
so i was feeling pretty crappy yesterday and i went to the gym and automatically i felt better ( Read more... )

mmm...todays just one of those days where i dont feel like doing anything and im so happy i dont work.  im just really bummed out for some reason.  its like, i dont have any reason to be, but i am.  im thinking its because ive barely got any sleep this weekend and im in school again and ive barely had time to eat anything and yeah.  anyway, im ( Read more... )