fic: Show me your true emotions.
Toma ended his work with a big smile on his mouth. That was the last they on the set of his new film. Lately he got lot of proposition for serials and cinema’s films and well he couldn’t tell, that he didn’t like this job. Actually Toma loved being an actor, because of that he could be anyone for a while. He could be a doctor, lawyer or even fly to the moon. That was really great and nice feeling. The best part of his job, but there were drawback too.
First of all, he was popular, so he couldn’t have private life. Or okay, he had private life, but he was the public person, so he must be careful. Fans were always with him. They were screaming and trying catch him almost every time, and there were paparazzi too. They were the worst from everything. Stories about him in magazines were incredible stupid, bad fans believed in them, so he must be careful of everything, which came from his mouth, and about his actions too. That was really hard for him, specially when he had bad day… Wait! He couldn’t have bad days. He must be perfect like everyone in his job.
That day Toma ended day earlier, so decided come back to home by subway. The weather was nice, so he wanted to go for some walk. When he was younger, he really liked walking, couldn’t imagine one day without short walk. Now things were different. Sometimes he even didn’t have time for walking or he was too tired for walking. That job was hard and painful. There were so many people, who hadn’t other choices, than give up their hobbies, and his walking things was a piece of cake compared with their sacrifices. Toma shook his head, when he realized, that he felt sorry of himself. Actually he hadn’t that bad life. He had lovely family, which support him in his every decision, even when they weren’t properly. He had wonderful friends. They were always with him, when he need them. Well they were his precious one, people, which he cared even more than for himself.
But Toma was only human, so he sometimes imagine himself doing normal things. Sometimes he wanted be normal men, with a normal job. He wanted being not popular. Just like a mice, or grey businessmen, which he often saw on the streets. That was just normal things, that he imagine himself doing something different, than his job. Well his imagination was really big one. That wasn’t hard for him to imagine himself even in prison. He liked those whiles, when he had time to imagine, because that was one thing, which remained him from childhood. Dreams were good things. Every human should have dreams, because without dreams, world ad life in that world, was sad and lonely.
But Toma wasn’t person who had a big dreams. His dreams was the ones, which he could fulfil. He just must found courage for that. And that day was the day, at which his dreams will came true.. He promised his best friend - Yamapi, that he finally fulfilled one of his dreams. Well he promised that, but he wasn’t sure, if he can do that. That’s why he decided back to home by subway. He needed time to prepared himself to that really difficult task. It was probably the hardest task in his whole life and well it wasn’t first time, when he promised to Yamapi, that he will fulfill that dream. Actually that was tenth time. Tenth and the last time, just because Yamapi had enough…
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“Toma it’s not that hard to confess him” Tomohisa was really tired and he just dreamt about one calm night, without guests. He felt like an grandmother with a good advices. There was always someone, who came to him with a beer to cry on his shoulders and he never refused them help. But God, he had simply enough, when the same person went to him once again with the same problem.
“Pi… but I just can’t! J always talking like a machine in front of him” his best friend had one big problem. He wasn’t good in expressing his feelings. Of course he could act, but that wasn’t good way to such important thing, like telling someone that he loved him. Yamapi took a deep breath and drink a little beer.
“Toma, you promised me a hundred time…”
“Actually only nine…” interjected Toma and that was enough for the younger one. If Yamapi had lasers in his eyes, Ikuta probably will be dead.
“Eight times too much” answered with a cold tone Tomohisa. He really had enough of that stupid problem. They were talking so many times of that subject. They also did some exercises of that situation, and their whole efforts did nothing, just because Ikuta couldn’t have enough of courage. “You promised me that this time, will be the last time, and what? Nothing… you fail again” exploded without any hope for success. “This time, we make a deal, okay?”
“Deal?”
“Yes, deal. If you fail this time, I told him, that you love him” Yamashita showed Toma his the best devil smile.
“You wouldn’t do that!” Ikuta almost yelled on the younger one. That wasn’t a good deal, but he purposed that Tomohisa will do that, even without deal, so he couldn’t do nothing, but. “Fine. I confessed to him tomorrow.”
“Finally!” Pi smiled to him widely and took cup of beer in his hand. “For your love” said before drinking the whole one.
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Toma sighed. He wasn’t sure of that whole task, but he was sure just one thing. Tomohisa was able to do everything. That’s why this time he couldn’t fail. Moreove he was left to his own decisions. Nobody could help him and that was scary thing to him. Closed his eyes and tried to concentrate on his task, but he had empty mind. All of Pi’s lessons just gone away. He was like a drowned ship, without any rescue chances. Another time he shook his head and opened eyes in a proper moment to see Kamenashi. Toma sighed with disbelief. Why Kamenashi was there? Why he was traveling with him? In the same train… it wasn’t train which drove to Kame’s place… and he probably will wondered of that to the end of his travel, if Kazuya didn’t saw him. The younger one sat in front of him.
“Why aren’t you lied in bed?” Kazuya asked him, with suspected look. Toma raised his eyebrow.
“Why should I lied in bed?” asked with a surprise. He wasn’t ill. He even didn’t feel bad… Okay, he felt bad, but it hadn’t any medicines connections.
“Pi-chan told me, that you have a flu” answered Kame with a sigh. He couldn’t believe that he felt for something like this. “He even asked me to gave you this” showed to the other one string bad with medicine. Toma raised his eyebrow once again. He couldn’t believe that Yamapi did something like this. Everybody knews that irritated Kame, wasn’t good idea, because that thin, small person was changed in a monster, when he was mad. In the other hand, Toma couldn’t stop thanks his best friend for that opportunity. He couldn’t let that chance out.
“You didn’t have a flu, right?” Kazuya still was looking at him with that sweet expression on his face. Anger with care, and Toma couldn’t help for it, but he felt even at that expression.
“I’m sorry Kazu, but I don’t have a flu” answered to him.
“I knew it!” Kazuya exploded. “I will kill Pi” promised to himself and looked out of the window. Toma took a deep breath and looked at the younger one. Always been looking like that, just observing the other one, never being able to talk properly with him, just because Kazuya was always with someone. He was just like Yamashita. There was always someone with them, and now… Now Kazuya was only with him and… he was really scared. He couldn’t find proper words to talk. Kamenashi didn’t talk either, but for Toma that wasn’t something unusual. Just because Kame had a whole right to being mad. Ikuta knew that this was his last chance, so he slight coughed.. Kazuya looked at him with raising his eyebrow.
“Actually I don’t have a flu, but I have incurable disease” said slowly.
“Yeah, right and I’m Santa Claus” Kazuya was skeptic, and Toma wanted withdrew, but he couldn’t. Yamapi will be mad if he do something like this, so he took another deep breath.
“You are?” asked. “I didn’t know that I’m so lucky person. I know Santa Claus! Lucky me!” smiled to Kame, who sighed with disbelief.
“Nice try” the younger one took his thumb up. “I’m not going to fell once again for your stupid plays” said with anger, then he licked his lips. Toma raised his eyebrows once again. Kamenashi had always been licked his lips, when he didn’t feel comfortable. He knew that, because of his observations.
“Why didn’t you get off on the previous station?” asked younger one with a sligh smile. Kame looked at him with a embarrassed.
“I just… I…” once again licked his lips. “You don’t look good.”
“I what?”
“You’re ill, right? You told me, that you’re ill” reminded him, trying back to observing view out the window.
“Yeah, right. You don’t believe me” reminded Toma. The whole situation was funny for him now, because he wasn’t one with a stress. Kame also was stressful and he didn’t know why.
“I changed my mind” Kame answered quickly, too quickly. “I’m Santa Claus, remember? Pi-chan had a wish, and I need to fulfill it” Kazuya smiled to him lovely. “I will be your nurse” promised to him.
“A nurse?” Toma couldn’t help, but laugh. He loved that embarrassed Kazuya. The younger one looked then like a human, not perfect machine to doing money. Kamenashi also was a human. They all were humans. They were only humans, but people seems to forgetting that. “My personal nurse” Toma took Kame’s hand and pulled him on his lap, then he hugged him tight. “You’re beautiful nurse, Kame-chan” whispered to his ear.
“And you’re handsome liar” answered Kazuya with a small smile on his face. Toma couldn’t wait any while longer, kissed his perfect lips and felt for that sexy man once again. That was their first kiss and he wanted remembered everything about it. Kazuya’s smell, taste, perfect lips shape. Everything. Kazuya tasted like a milk chocolate with a little honey, but there was also something bitter in it. That was perfect taste for Toma. He wanted that moment to last forever.
“I’m not a liar” Toma smiled to the younger one, when the other broken kiss. “I’m ill. I fell in love with you. This is my disease, but I don’t want being cured from that” whispered with another kiss. “I love you” said truly and looked in Kame’s eyes, which were whole of happiness, but he didn’t have chance to answered, because Yamapi hugged both of them tight.
“Finally! I love you too, guys!” yelled on the whole train. “I’ll have calm, nice night today!” Yamashita was extra happy for that. Finally nobody came to him in night, and he will have time for himself. That was such a great news for him. “I’m so happy for you! But seriously… I should kicked your ass. Both of you. You’re such an idiot! Toma, you should confess to him earlier” Tomohisa looked at his best friend with widely smiled, and then he looked at Kame too. “You’re the idiot too, you know? You have so many chances today to confess what are you truly feel to him, and you didn’t do this”
“Pi-chan…” Kazuya smiled to Yamapi widely. “Thank you” he kissed his cheek and hugged Toma more. “I love you too, Toma-chan” whispered with a deep kiss.
‘Wait a minute… why Pi is here?”
“Because I asked him for help” answered Kazuya. “I wanted to confess you… but I didn’t find courage. I was afraid of your reaction, and Pi-chan offered me help” explained silently.
“You act all the time?” Toma raised his eyebrows and Kame nodded a little. “So who is a liar here?” Toma laughed happily hugging Kame tight. “I love you, my little turtle” whispered silently.