I miss you too, but you're writting about men's pregnency! And... and... I hate this topic, so I just skipped it. So sorry...
I'm doing okay, I think. I'm better now... of course I still am loosing my weight and I hate it so much, but I'm trying think in positive way. I still have therapy and I'm going there in the next week. Well I'm also working on a story to that magazine and the deadlines are just... I hate them the most! Because I feel like the story need to be re-written once again and that I need change some parts and so on... but I simply have no time for that. It's frustrating. And then I'm afraid of studies. I'm starting them in October and it's so not right. I feel that I just can't do this. It's too much...
nah don't say sorry. I'd never make you read about things you don't like. And I might be the most surprised writing about it actually lol But... you don't need to read my fics to update me about you *pouts*
Well, I'm glad you're a little better though sad you're still losing weight. But I guess it comes with the treatment. I think all I can do is to give you a big hug hoping it can help a little. But I'm really happy you found the strength to stay positive through this :) I'm sorry I wasn't there for you recently though. Gomen.
*hug* it sucks to have deadlines because you can't write the way you want and be satisfied by it in the end. But knowing you, I think you'll never be since you can be quite hard with yourself hope I'm not making up things but that's the feeling I have. Gambatte and don't stress yourself to much. I know it's easier said than done, especially since I'm not in your place, but you have enough to stress to deal with all those hospital, treatment and therapy things
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I know, I know... but still I have that writting block, 'cause I don't have a time to think in english. Maybe when I start study... and I wasn't around too, so there was no chance to update about my. I'm sorry hugging monster! *hug*
It's not your fault Monster-chan! I'm the one to blame. I wasn't here too and still don't know if I can be here for a good. I'll trying, but well... life is full of unexpected thing right?
I'm not mad at you, 'cause you probably have right. I've never been good enough to satisfy myself. I'm still pushing myself more and more and still... think that everything what I do just sucks. sad but true... It's like addiction.
Maybe you're right, but it's not fair. I don't want be so scared about it. *sigh* It's totally not fair.
Thank you Monseter-chan. I know I can poke you anytime and maybe I will... I still can write e-mail to you :D
Better, though I'm still loosing my weight and it's frustrating. I also am a little depressed, 'cause I never thought that I will be so afraid of going study. October will be in a moment and well I'm just afraid of that. And the deadline is something which I hate the most! I have that story, which I'm writting to the magazine and okay, I can write and my chapters are quite long, but I think I should spend more time on them. Well there is no time at all! Which frustrated me the most...
Why you afraid of going study? That not so scary, maybe stressful, but maybe you will like it :)
Deadlines is the worst thing in the world, but for me the deadlines thing always work, if I knew that I have a little time, I collect myself seat and write what I need, because when the date is not defined I'm too lazy :/
Wish you big luck with your stories!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes they are good as they are and when we start editing, because of desire to make everything perfect can edit not so good how it was before ( this about me :|)
Just see you here rarely and always happy to receive some news about you!!!! Don't be afraid and I wish you luck and I'm sure everything will be just great!!!!!!!
So sorry sensei! I'm trying be more often here, but I'm not strong enough to do something. And I spend a lot of time in hospital this days. It's not so good for me. Well I'm also a little depressed, but trying stay positive :)
I don't know why. I feeling a little not in a place for study right now. Sometimes I think that... this is too much for me. Stories, my illness and then studies... I don't know if I can hang it.
Better, though I'm still loosing my weight and it's frustrating. I also am a little depressed, 'cause I never thought that I will be so afraid of going study. October will be in a moment and well I'm just afraid of that. And the deadline is something which I hate the most! I have that story, which I'm writting to the magazine and okay, I can write and my chapters are quite long, but I think I should spend more time on them. Well there is no time at all! Which frustrated me the most...
i'm glad tho. yesterday, i chatted with Vera and somehow i mentioned you and Nori-chan. the three of you suddenly disappear. it makes me worried. but glad that through everything, you're okay. October? wish you luck, lil bro.. i know you're strong. let me know if you will go to hospital or else...i hate if my friends suddenly disappear.. ><" --i sound selfish. gomen--
I'm so sorry sis. I'm trying be online more often, but I'm not strong enough to being online. And I'm often in hospitals this days. It's not so funny. I feel really bad because of that. So sorry sis *hugs*
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I'm doing okay, I think. I'm better now... of course I still am loosing my weight and I hate it so much, but I'm trying think in positive way. I still have therapy and I'm going there in the next week.
Well I'm also working on a story to that magazine and the deadlines are just... I hate them the most! Because I feel like the story need to be re-written once again and that I need change some parts and so on... but I simply have no time for that. It's frustrating. And then I'm afraid of studies. I'm starting them in October and it's so not right. I feel that I just can't do this. It's too much...
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Well, I'm glad you're a little better though sad you're still losing weight. But I guess it comes with the treatment. I think all I can do is to give you a big hug hoping it can help a little. But I'm really happy you found the strength to stay positive through this :) I'm sorry I wasn't there for you recently though. Gomen.
*hug* it sucks to have deadlines because you can't write the way you want and be satisfied by it in the end. But knowing you, I think you'll never be since you can be quite hard with yourself hope I'm not making up things but that's the feeling I have. Gambatte and don't stress yourself to much. I know it's easier said than done, especially since I'm not in your place, but you have enough to stress to deal with all those hospital, treatment and therapy things ( ... )
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It's not your fault Monster-chan! I'm the one to blame. I wasn't here too and still don't know if I can be here for a good. I'll trying, but well... life is full of unexpected thing right?
I'm not mad at you, 'cause you probably have right. I've never been good enough to satisfy myself. I'm still pushing myself more and more and still... think that everything what I do just sucks. sad but true... It's like addiction.
Maybe you're right, but it's not fair. I don't want be so scared about it. *sigh* It's totally not fair.
Thank you Monseter-chan. I know I can poke you anytime and maybe I will... I still can write e-mail to you :D
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Deadlines is the worst thing in the world, but for me the deadlines thing always work, if I knew that I have a little time, I collect myself seat and write what I need, because when the date is not defined I'm too lazy :/
Wish you big luck with your stories!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes they are good as they are and when we start editing, because of desire to make everything perfect can edit not so good how it was before ( this about me :|)
Just see you here rarely and always happy to receive some news about you!!!! Don't be afraid and I wish you luck and I'm sure everything will be just great!!!!!!!
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I don't know why. I feeling a little not in a place for study right now. Sometimes I think that... this is too much for me. Stories, my illness and then studies... I don't know if I can hang it.
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maybe i should make my own :)
Yeah writer block is such a headache. I cant come up with anything decent recently...sigh
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Exactly... it's really depressed thing...
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i'm glad tho. yesterday, i chatted with Vera and somehow i mentioned you and Nori-chan. the three of you suddenly disappear. it makes me worried.
but glad that through everything, you're okay.
October? wish you luck, lil bro..
i know you're strong.
let me know if you will go to hospital or else...i hate if my friends suddenly disappear.. ><"
--i sound selfish. gomen--
good luck, lil bro. <33
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I'm so sorry sis.
I'm trying be online more often, but I'm not strong enough to being online. And I'm often in hospitals this days. It's not so funny. I feel really bad because of that. So sorry sis *hugs*
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