2009

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The year is on its way out, a decade is. Jazz is playing on my stereo, I have a bit of a cold, and I am dressed in layers in my apartment, it a bit chilly, but there also that cold that I've already mentioned that is messing with my body temperature, that led me to call in sick to work today, and sleep in with a boy in my bed, this boy Jacob, and

Comments

[jacobean_ruff]

Decades passing are terrible reminders of all that you have not accomplished I find. trying to pin point what it is exactly that you have done during this time period is always like trying to work out how you manage to spend fifty dollars on what appears to be nothing, its just relative to our concept of what it means to achieve something.

[anonymous]

Hey, this is Gabriel. I just wanted to clarify: Charlie fucked me in my sleep back then and never could figure out how to heal the trust he'd broken. Apparently he is still having a hard taking responsibility and has misrepresented me instead.

Anyhow, I love you still, and believe in you. But if you're going to bring up that story, then tell it right. I understand if you want to delete this comment, but would expect you to represent the past more accurately.

Love, anyhow!
Gabriel

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Gabriel, I recapped this year that has just closed, 2009. You are mentioned for all of two sentences in a long entry trying to take in the course of a year. I say that you told me you didn't want me helping with Judy and that that made it difficult to be around people that had been my friends. That is not a misrepresentation. It is something that occurred that hurt my feelings a lot in the early part of 2009. The thing you are referencing occurred in the fall of 2008 and so I think it's telling that you again mention it here, throw it in my face again. It has been a year a half since I sucked your dick and had you fuck me (the verb fucking implies a certain thing and I think your statement lacks clarity and if that's what you're after, let's actually shoot for the thing and be as accurate with our language as possible) and I have apologized numerous times to you for this. You, however, don't want to move on, find reason to somehow throw this subject into the comment section of an entry where I try to detail the ups and downs for me of

[anonymous]

Your entry wasn't correct, Charlie. In light of how our friendship unraveled that Fall, I told you I wasn't ready to be committed to a project or party with you BEFORE New Years 2009, so I guess that wasn't relevant, either. That's why you decided to aim your drunken resentment at me the first day of last year.

Your entry implies that we got into some unrelated fight and then I flippantly made a decision that would alienate you from your friends and that's not true. That's your victim narrative, Charlie.

I guess I could have written you personally and asked you to remove or correct the misrepresentation, but I didn't think of that. Anyhow, let's keep our friendship in that painstakingly slow healing process. It's better than nothing!