overdue post

[mox_liber]

since i've been here i've been too dependent on people for my happiness. it's not nessessarily a bad thing but it's a 180 from the days back in miami. here i have other people who know exactly what i went and am now going through, they're called fags. but how wise is it to depend on gay people for my happiness; we're all fucking unstable, depressed

Comments

[trishthedish04]

Nah, I think you're stronger than that. I love you like a fat kid loves cake.

[mox_liber]

i'm not stronger than that...i'm just cold, which comes off as being strong...and i love u too!!! and we're going to a gay club in miami on thanksgiving!!!! they re so much fun

[rulis118504]

i agree with trish
i dont even know you that well, but i can tell you are a strong guy.
but i guess it's good that you are thinking about your current situation. be the independent guy i always knew. be Bernardo. there's nothign better, dude.
love you!
hope to see you eventually

[mox_liber]

the thing is that i've been independent my whole life and i'm tired of it...not the type of independence as in i can do things by myself, but the independence from people...i've never had any really close friends and i have no idea how it works, so as with everything in life i'm gonna try to wing it and see what happends...wish me luck

[rulis118504]

all the luck in the world.
i get you. having close friends like that is something different. you're awesome so i know you'll be fine. but, its a challenge. good luck. just remember, we are all trying to figure the same shit out. we all suck in some ways lol
hey, in my sociology class, our teacher put on a stand-up comic today... and i just remembered one of her jokes...:
"I'm not one of those bitter women who say men suck. Men don't suck... enough"
LMAO! isnt that great?

cheer up boy!

[beyond_obvious]

well, honestly i dont think anyone really knows who they are. and what they like or what-not. i mean unless you have treidn everythign and been everything you can't really tell. i mean it is possible to live a lie or to become somehting you never where before, it doesnt mean its fake!!! an you're doubting yourself, its normal and honestly i have depended on people for my happiness. shit i did it this friking summer! buts it like the easy way out. (dont ask where im giong or were i came from i dont know either). being happy b/c u are around otehr people or b.c soemone else makes you it its easier than being happy like all on your own, its so like transcedentalish.
and if you think about it everyone is unstable, depressed, narcissistic, and bipolar. heck like three of those terms can be synonimous(make that two).
anyhow
wehn u come down here it will be my b-day not that that matters but we must chill.
<3 ya
alex

Re: cheer up boy!

[mox_liber]

we're going to a gay bar on ur b day...u have no choice..lol

Re: cheer up boy!

[beyond_obvious]

ok ... so im around men i cant have all the time so its cool ... its set!
<3
ya
alex

[charis_85]

ok so i really haven't known you for that long, but let's face it, you really don't need other people to make you happy. the bernardo i know didn't take crap from people in miami, why should you in NY? next time your friends say we're jumping off a bridge, say "have fun!"
if you don't like depending on others, don't!

[mox_liber]

i did give a shit about some people in miami, i put up the facade i didn't because i never felt like i could be myself. it was just my way of coping with being in the closet...and it s not that i don't like depending on people, it s just that i feel like its unhealthy because people are unpredictable and u never know what they re thinking...for all i know someone i care about couldn't give two shits about me...that s what i m afraid of, of liking someone who doesn't like me

[dallyflyguy]

lol bernardo if you choose ANYONE to be dependant on, dont choose me! jk jk, i may JOKE like im confused, but i know whats up. you think i had ANY interest in that pussy i put up on my wall? plus, your likes and dislikes here dont even fuckin matter. i listened to the faggiest music all through high school, then would play fuckin dave matthews band rollin into the high school parking lot lol! and then i came here and it turns out i listened to the "music gay people are SUPPOSED to listen to". but you dont even have to conform ya know? fuck britney spears and shit if you like boring music and all that. haha... PS - i may joke around a lot but if you need to talk about this shit i can listen, im not reaaally ADD. holla

[drowningmyfate]

fuck why are the fags the cute ones..always...damn