work tomorrow. have THAT feeling in my stomach, again! I am dreading it because I don't know what they are going to have me do for 7.5 hours. I might take an hour lunch. i might kill myself. so if you don't see me anytime soon, you better call. i might just perish in the mean time ( Read more... )

off work today!  amen to that. loving every minute of it. even though a lot of it has been cleaning. its still nice. i love my ev. he loves me more than necessary. he got into a huge fit crying hard bc i wouldnt come in the living room at the exact minute he wanted me to. it was nuts. hes got to get over this being in charge thing. now that hes ( Read more... )

so nati(my  current nanny) tells me that the lady she previously worked for is already ready to have her back. she might need her as soon as the first week in feb. great. fucking great. there goes my good set up and my here comes my stomach ache again ( Read more... )

 omg. i feel like total shit. im sure i look it too. being sick is just terrible. i have been letting evan watch tv all weekend. i feel bad, but not as bad as i physically feel. i want to lay in bed and sleep. all day. for 3 days actually. but I can't. as usual. got lots of shit to do and laundry to fold. need to go buy a sweater to wear to work ( Read more... )

instead of  spending time together....don fell asleep when he put evan to bed. and i watched tv by myself. when i went into bed, i woke him up to change clothes and set the alarm and he got up and came out and watched tv. figures. he wonders why he lays in bed for three hours trying to fall asleep. maybe its the "nap" you take at 9pm til 11pm.

evan is sick. now  i am sick. shit. why now. why this week. why why why. I know tomorrow I am going to wake up feeling bad and hope that Monday morning I am over it. I can not work or answer phones with this man voice ( Read more... )

 so today work was not nearly as bad. thank god in heaven above. too bad I have to go back again tomorrow. blah. i don't like this going back with no break in between. shit. why do I have to do this? why am I am adult now?? I feel wretched. but not nearly as wretched as yesterday ( Read more... )

shit. work. tomorrow. shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. I just got that panicky feeling in my chest again. I might be getting Evan out of his bed again tonight:( god please please please let tomorrow go better than Monday. I might not go back if it's not.:( im not kidding or being dramatic either. im not going to give up, but I am not going to suffer ( Read more... )

Little Red School House in Taylor Mill has an opening for 3 year old right now. I am happy. I have to call back to schedule an appointment to visit and figure everything out. The Lady I talked to was really friendly and nice. helpful too. This was a relief. i just pictured Tina and didn't want to except anything better. for fear of let down. thank ( Read more... )

Evan's STILL sleeping. Its 10:07am! wow.
too bad I am not.
it always works that way.
I got a good nights sleep though...thank god. i feel nice and refreshed. 
thank you rozerum(sp?)
today I started my diet. fudge. i turned the burner all the way up to high to get the goetta to cook fast..well...it didnt work. and now I have the window, the front and ( Read more... )