whoa! when i just updated, the button jumped around my screen and when it came back it, instead of saying what it normally says when i click it, it said "processing whining" very weird.

ok, so someone tell me.. what is it about me that says that i like to be threatened. today i was threatened by a complete stranger because HE hit MY car. i love how these things happen ( Read more... )

ok, so i figured out that stress and procrastination are the root of all my emotional woes. good that i know. sucks that i still have stress and procrastinate from time to time. an hour ago i was super down, but now that i've pretty much finished my work, i feel fine. so thats it.

home tomorrow to do yet more work. i want break.

this is all really getting to me.. i am tired of being alone (literally i am alone in this fucking depressing apartment used for the set). i am tired of this overwealming feeling of not fitting here. i just want to go back home, not home home necessarily, just somewhere i'm used to. i miss my pattern. i just need a break. this is all a little much ( Read more... )

so i'm here at my friend's place (which happens to be the set as well) and he went to bed last night before i posted, so around 9ish. it was because he hadn't slept the two nights before and he is coming down with something. i went to bed around midnight, woke at seven, then at ten. i have been working ever since ten, because i have nothing else to ( Read more... )

ok, so i'm in LA and its fine. i'm totally excited about this, because its really happening and i have a few days with an open canvas of a room. i get to do whatever i think fits best with the movie and whatnot. well this is fucking awesome!! because its all my choice. i couldnt be more thrilled. unfortunately thats the problem.... i have to do ( Read more... )

well today was my big day. eh, it was ok. thanks to all who called or texted me, that was great! i got some books, dvds, a really cool hat. yeah good stuff all around. i did end up going to the SF MOMA with my family which was nice, but since i was at empty ghosttown SSU, i wasn't used to talking, so i felt as though my ear was talked off a little ( Read more... )

well i'm officially the only one at sonoma state... my itunes doesn't even give me the option to listen to friends music (as it usually does) and i'm thinking that its not because its moody ( Read more... )

fuck being sensitive ( Read more... )