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[mrbev]

So today, I'm feeling a lot better. I'm still repulsed, but I'm over the bulk of the bitching. Thos transition into who knows what will take time. After all, I don't even know what I want. Although I don't want to be gay, I'm not gonna repress myself by forcing myself to like women. All I can say is that, honestly, I haven't given it a chance

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[immoralfear]

i kinda understand what you mean, actually. you don't see heterosexual folks going around proclaiming straight pride. being gay is just one out of so many parts of you and the associated stereotypes and expectations sure suck. just be true to yourself, there is no compelling need to fit in, but you don't have to shun the entire scene completely because of a few people.

good luck for the tournament though! remember to have lots of fun!

PS. and yeah, scandinavians are blonde, tall and generally beautiful *licks lips* pity most don't speak english.

[mrbev]

hey, thanks a lot for your messages...

I guess whatever I'm feeling is enhanced by the whole 'underground' nature of gay culture and the fact that there is so much taboo surrounding it. Thus, it makes it much easier to look down it, even if it is my own kind.

If I look at the heterosexual world, there are also very many dodgy people. Just because these gay guys happened to give me a sour impression doesn't mean that the whole community is this way too. Besides, during that weekend of pride, I'm playing with a pretty hot guy who is also interning for my company :)

I'm glad to hear parts of your trip went well, and congratulations. Scandinavians are luscious in general :p I don't think I've seen so many blonde and blue-eyed folk in my life before. Try Denmark...everyone speaks English there. The only one I ran into who didn't speak English was this one hot dude who was so cute for trying so hard.