having nothing

[mrdestiny1]

in about third grade i had some unidentified sickness. (if the doctors did tell my parents what it was, nobody shared it with me

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[autumnpumpkins]

i know how you feel. im not going to leave sympathetic comments because you said you didnt want anyone to. but do know, you probably arent pointless. there is probably meaning to your life somewhere. you might not see it, but maybe others do. just ask people that you know in real life, point blank what they like about you or what they have gained from having a relationship with you. even if its something bad or a life lesson you taught them, its something.

meaning

[mrdestiny1]

i get your point but definitely don't want to ask anyone - wayyy too afraid/upsetting to hear the bad things i may have contributed to anyone.

i like to hope that there is some minute speck of goodness that someone may find from me, but it just seems pailed in comparison to the negative things i am/contribute/have potential of ever being.

[e_strano]

That's interesting. You think you're bad so you're not ready to go. When it comes over me, I feel I'm bad so there's no point in keeping me here. A girl told me to stop thinking of myself and think of someone else. This getting rid of selfpity works with me (though I don't turn better)

so bad

[mrdestiny1]

thinking of someone else would help me not to focus on the self pity, but that underlying self hatred would still be there.

just curious - how did you come across my journal??

Re: so bad

[e_strano]

Through some 'befriend me' community, don't remember which. i'm not good as a friend, just felt keen to comment.

Re: so bad

[mrdestiny1]

that's cool, just was curious how you came across my journal.

thanks for the comment, always appreciate what anyone has to say, and i'm glad you took the time to comment!

hope all is well with you!

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[tapespenu]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMzgVshG6CI