I got impressed by the show on Saturday, I didn't really think that many ppl were going to go.  There was so many things going on, so many shows during/before/after.  Over 200 hundred ppl went, bands included and in my eyes it was a true success.  We got to pay the bands 40 thousands dollars each, we got to keep two million a piece and  I just want ( Read more... )

I feel like I've been trying to battle all these bands all these shows by myself and I don't know for wht...I guess just to give ppl better things..but nobody wants to listen...I dn't know..I try to make everything nice and neat and spacious but everything seems so jam packed..I can't event breath every band has played either this week or like ( Read more... )

I love memories but I hate crying.  I love questoning but hate realizing horrid conclusions even if they are real.  filing but feeling unfufilled...I'm just fucking crazy ( Read more... )

I'm kinda worried about this show...I hope it goes well....I just want enough to pay the bands a decent amount.

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I held my head up high for a second or two, just to let the sun get in my eye..the burning made me wake up from the dream I was having in broad daylight..of smiles and rains and happiness and laughs. The smell of the dead quickly filled my nostrills and the water came to my eyes..I looked around jerking my head back and forth but I couldn't get ( Read more... )

So you think she loves me..not wanting to let go, you think she loves me?? Even though she never said it I know she does, I feel it...it's somewhere there mixed with confusion and anger it's there ( Read more... )

So I'm screaming out to the heavens even though I won't get my prayers answered. All alone and scared, cold and lonely and I'm not even talking about myself. Life starting at 35..is it even a life at all anymore. Can somebody recover from a blow that low. You think he'll kill himself mom? You think he'll die in there...you think it's for the ( Read more... )

Sad to see you go again, sad to say bye, just to say hello again from far away.

They said Jesus walked among us, I wish I would have seen him. Asked him where they were, why this happened, why she's like this. They said he went up into the clouds so I look up and all I see is suns,clouds,stars and moons, nothing of real substance. I wonder if that's the reason why I stopped believing,did I even beleive in the first place? ( Read more... )