I do have to admit the freak were out last night... I mean to night cause the sun hasn't risen... I feel like a dam vampire... I dont consider it a new day until the sun has come up... Actually thats not to far away from now... I'll try to get me some new pics up of myself and maybe chester too... I have so much to say but no desire to say them ( Read more... )

It's weird when i think things are gonna change... They don't they stay the same... Or if they do change for the better it just a slow dragged out Process... Well I can't really complain ( Read more... )

Sunday I got to sleep in late...
Chester Didn't bother me at all... He let me sleep...
I decide to hang and go to Panera Bread.. It's better than star Bucks
Pretty much for the rest of the day just relaxed at home...
Later went over Colin house and watched a few movies untila 1am

Inspite of all thing that went wrong I had a great day ( Read more... )

I feel Like a pot head. I'm really burnt out. My brain can't think. I gotta doctor appoint.. Not looking forward to going... I only have to so i can keep my prescription filled. The Doctor a nice guy. He has been my family doctor since I was really young. What a relief chester woke me again today but with out the claws. Alway same time evry ( Read more... )

I wish everyone came with a manual so you would know how to fix them or myself. I find myself saying fuck it and feels good. I amdit I'm damage goods but so is everyone else. I just wish I could smack the fuck out people sometimes. I feel weird like i should sharpen the axe. But a dull axe can be fun and fustrating at the same time. I think i been ( Read more... )

This is not my day. I can hide for awhile from my depression but the problems are still here. I tell myself to be happy. I just want to be complete.... whole. It Just gets to the point where the walls just crumble down. I can fool myself and be happy for awhile. I just need to be be able to love and be loved... Find the one that completes me... I ( Read more... )

Well I have a big day tomorrow.. I think.. I hope... any ways... Gonna go hang with Linda and have Lunch with Colin... Then go go buy tickets for Green day concert... This Will be Linda First Concert.. Real concert... I like going to meriweather post pavallion to see bands play.. I always have.. Now i get to share this with experience to a virgin ( Read more... )

I got a lot of problems.. I admit it.. I can slowly feel myself dieing inside... maybe cause i am... I'm depressed... that will kick your ass alot when your a diabetic... I need a drink a real drink.. One that will knock me into next week. I wish i had to spend with my brother. That will never happen. I still regret that i never went and seen him ( Read more... )

I hate myself... Everything fucking sucks in life... everything... I dont know what i want... God I hate me... I'm just angry at myself... Who cares i dont anymore... SOmetime i think only the cat loves me and sometime i don't... What the fuck is wrong with me... Maybe i need to isolate myself from the world more... I have been much more happy that ( Read more... )