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1.) Are you male or female?:
I'm a girl
I'm only thirteen
My body rots
Cause I won't fucking eat
(distillers)
2.) Describe your neighborhood?:
"the outside looks so good"
( line from a norma jean song)
3.) How do you look?:
She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world
Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just die out
(garbage i think?..maybe)
4.) If you could say something to the person you love, what would it be?:
i could say so much...
Coughing up feeling just for you
To find something real to hold on to
But there is a hole inside my heart
Where waves of my love come tumbling out.
See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time I am talking
Think of me as days pass us by.
Shards of glass
Skin of gold
Steal my breath
Blood runs cold
Violet waves
Oceans blue
All my love
Lost in you
(fata)
But I lost what was mine, and I want what was mine.
My heart now it always breaks, the blood did drip and I take,
another wish, another kiss, no more will for me to kill.
We'd run away in our dismay, but please, come back to me.
(sences fail)
come take my hand and we'll watch fate destroy us.
god damn, you were the best.
I know reality's gone mad with the blink of an eye.
(coheed and cambria...i think?)
For you,
I'd do anything just to make you happy, hear you tell me that you’re proud of me
For them,
I'll kill anything cut the throats of babies for them break they're hearts for they were them
Waiting for you to say… I love you too
(coheed and cambria)
Heartbreak incarnate
I'm nothing if not your memories,
your heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain
Someday I will be, I'll be that waking warmth from a fading dream
Because I will I may at best float as you feel
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past all tear stained and wrinkled
(afi)
Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
(afi)
i should have known
you should have known
if only we could see into the future
but we cant, so stop trying
you got me so used to feeling like an angel
you pushed me so high i could kiss the stars
but its your kiss that ill be missing now
and not even the wind can push me now
so heavy with hope
cant sleep in fear of dreaming of you
because nightmares are the only things that come true now
not for the world, something so much smaller
(i wrote this)
You said so much without even parting your lips
It's past 3 am and I'm still far from sleep
This is a habit that I can't break
(18 visions...or fata?)
But for now I'll have to dream
about your smile 'cause you're not
here and all I want to say is
that I really miss you
(goldfinger i beleive?)
And there's dust in my eyes, that blinds my sight
And silence that speaks so much louder that words,
Of promises broken
(pink ployd)
When you said goodnight, didn't you mean goodbye.
It's not the way you loved me, but definitely how you hurt me.
Your lies like a dagger through my heart.
Pierced me where it hurts the most.
If you were gone, would I miss you, or would I be greatful.
All I ever wanted was your love.
(across five aprils)
5.) What would you say to your best friends?:
its not your fault it gets this hard
hold you head high dont look down
im by your side
i wont back down
you wanted a hero well im not made of steel but you secrets safe with me
i can be ne thing you want me to be
a holy cross, some sympathy
that reminds you how to bleed
they found the note down in you car
you climbed up here to fall apart
they knock you down, ill pick you up
they laugh at you, ill shut them up
6.) Any words of wisdom?:
search out a forgotten friend
dissmiss a suspision and replace it with trust
write a letter to someone who misses you
encourage a youth who has lost faith
keep a promise
forget an old grudge
examine your demands on others and vow to reduce them
fight for a principle
express yuor gratitude
overcome an old fear
take two minutes to appreciate the beauty of nature
tell someone you love them,
tell them again,
and again,
and again.
(its not a song..but i like it...)
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
and live for the moment now ....
(.. and i found that in someones info..)
7.) What do you wish you were doing right now?:
i cant find a song that says what i want to be doing...
8.) How do you feel right now?:
you can't understand my nightmares.
bad dreams are all that I can keep..
So here I am
doing everything I can
holding on to what I am
pretending I'm a superman
I'm trying to keep
the ground on my feet
it seems the world's
falling down around me
the nights are all long
I'm singing this song
to try and make the answers
more than maybe
(goldfinger)
hello beautiful, why you lookin so down?
i've lost my wings, but they're useless now
i've already forgotten how to fly
See me dancing in the rain.
See me I'm insane.
If you could feel my pain then you'd know.
I'll try to run and hide.
This hot pink Is way too bright.
I'm pretty in pink and these looks could kill if she finds me.
(18 visions)
What drives you on
Can drive you mad
A million lies to sell yourself
Is all you ever had
(garbage)
You stupid girl
All you had you wasted
(garbage)
wow. thats all i have to say about things since i last updated.. dont wanna try to type stuff out.. to lazy..but it was crazy.
today is my brothers b-day..his friends are over.. hmm. im gunna try to stay over matts.. or.. somewhere. they are to loud here. uhm.
yea. im feeling pretty crappy..