Glee - SLL Verse - Little Blue Plus Signs - R
It was a frightening moment, sitting on the edge of the bathtub, waiting nervously for results. Kurt was biting his nails, something he hated doing, but he was worried. What were Finn and Puck going to say? What would his Dad?
He’d told his Dad over a year ago he’d never have to worry about Kurt knocking someone up, but they hadn’t mentioned the fact that someday he might get pregnant. Honestly, Kurt had never expected to be having sex before he was out of high school, maybe not even until after college. He was the gay kid. Before Blaine, he didn’t think he would have a boyfriend until college.
Now he had two, and Finn and Puck were both very serious about letting Kurt know how they felt about him. They went to the effort of cheering him up when he was down and they made sure to take their time to show him how attractive they found him. They both made him feel special and appreciated, but right now he was terrified.
If he were pregnant, it could screw up all their plans. College would be so much harder with a baby. Would Finn and Puck still… The drama with Quinn and Beth had been a disaster, and even though it was two years ago he didn’t want to cause a fight between them.
Kurt jumped when the timer rang, accidentally biting his finger.
He hissed, “Fuck!” as he shook his hand to ease the pain. Standing up, he shuffled across the tile to the sink counter where the test was. Taking a deep breath, he looked at the stick, comparing it to the back of the box.
He bit his bottom lip to stifle the shout that came up his throat. A moan still made it out, and he clenched his eyes shut in an attempt to stop the tears. It didn’t work. He could feel them sliding, hot, down his cheeks. Picking up the test, he felt his lungs start working harder. He was drawing in a difficult breath. Oh God, he was starting to sob. His hands went to his chest as he started heaving in his breaths. He slid to the floor, leaning against the cupboards, kneeling on the floor beside the toilet.
He was. He was pregnant. Barely eighteen, about to start college, and pregnant. His mother would be so disappointed. His father was going to be disappointed. Carole and Ruth were going to be upset when they found out. But the most important reactions, the only ones he cared about, were Finn and Puck’s. They were the fathers of his baby and if they didn’t want it, didn’t want them, he might break. It was a frightening thought, but it was consuming him in that moment.
He couldn’t control the sobs or the tears or the sudden heaves. Quickly, Kurt turned and rose to his knees, leaning over the toilet to vomit. For too long he crouched there, crying and puking, terrified thoughts of Finn and Puck abandoning him circling in his mind.
When he calmed down, he rinsed his mouth and brushed his teeth. He threw the test away and washed his face. The house was empty, so he wasn’t worried about anyone having heard him or catching him. He made himself something to eat and went to bed early that night.
He was still awake when everyone came home late that night, because he couldn’t sleep. He was tossing and turning, but held still, eyes closed, when Finn and Puck peeked in on him. Almost an hour later he heard Finn moan out Puck’s name. Kurt rolled over and, somehow, managed to force himself to sleep.
Over the next couple of weeks, he realized how much Finn and Puck really did want him. They both took him on a date, a real date, to Columbus, for a showing of Wicked and dinner somewhere other than Breadstix, the weekend before the finals of the football league they were playing for over the summer. They wanted to tell their parents, wanted to ask Burt’s formal permission, because they were both huge dorks like that and they knew Mr. Hummel was pissed about the way things ended with Blaine.
Kurt had almost blurted it out right then in the restaurant, but dessert arrived and the boys took him to a hotel for the night, where they made love to him in a way they really hadn’t before. He felt cherished by the end of that weekend, and his fears of abandonment were gone.
He decided to take them out for dinner after the final game and tell them. Tell them how much he cares about them, how much he loves them, and that he was having their baby.