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[mrwhippymug]

It feels good to be back. As much as I love everyone back in Batavia, I've been itching to get back here almost since the time I got back home. There's something very unreproducible about the experience here, and it's a very nice change of pace. I feel like it's easier to be the person I am here. People you know from high school still have a

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from Claire

[anonymous]

Nick,
Did I ever tell you how much I love you? You know what's crazy. Almost every time I read one of your journals, poems, e-mails, or something, I tend to tear up. There is something about you that really opens people up. Thank you.
Do you see better now how I was feeling over my first break? I'm sorry that I expressed it in a poor way.
I love you so much, I'm proud of you, happy for you, and I think things will change this summer for some of us.
Remember that you are forever being watched over.

[tulsapixie]

I want you to be who you want be whenever and wherever. I want to be the new me too, except I don't think I've changed much. I wish I, like you, could say that I had. I'm sorry I won't see you again until the summer. I love you.
Love Always,
Laura

Interesting...

[thatguitarguy]

You know its interesting to hear things from an outside perspective so to speak...as the person that really doesnt know much about the group, and is quite new to it. The general opinion on the group is this: we're stuck in the high school ways and we dont appear to of matured, to of grown up...but stuck in our old ways.

So lets think about this...if everyones acting like they were, and everyone is upset that we're not being who we really are...we all lose right?

Second point...who controls how you act? Yourself. I honestly dont think I need to say anymore on that point...its pretty self explanitory.

[mrwhippymug]

I's not like i try to be the old me around you guys. It's just that the way everybody acts, I just slip back into my old ways subconciously as well. And the main reason that I can't be the true real me back home is because my closest friends up here are very religious and bring it into everything and they way they live and I can feed off of that very easily. Not many of our friends are like that, and some people even get upset when religion is introduced into everything. So even though that's who I am, when all the controversy about that comes up, I try to not be part of the problem as much. I know that I should still be myself, and my friends will still love and accept me, but right now it's just ingrained enough in me to be that way, so it's hard without the support I get from friends here. Also, Brandon, no offense, but I'm not really sure you have the same frame of reference as I do, having two different sets of friends that act differently, considering you pick up a lot on what the people around you are doing. You tend to

[lovelark]

Look, suddenly I'm feeling very guilty

[mrwhippymug]

it's not really you who I'm talking about...and even so, it's not something that is anyone's fault per se, it's just that I have to live the way I want enough so that it's ingrained in me, that I don't need to feed off of the people around me...that will take time, but it'll happen.

[lovelark]

Be a christian. You are a christian, and good for you.

that's all I'm saying.