in 2 weeks...it will have been six years since Jon died...

I never really told anyone about when he died...

March 26th, 1998

I miss him so much...

I just spent the last half hour crying about it...

Im so whiney...

yupp...bleaching my hair...

its all burny and throbby and stuff...

*nods* well...ive got to keep an eye on m'hair

wow....ive got so many cuts...*counts*
I almost lost my razor...
33 in the last couple of months...
I was soo scared...
thats more than I have cut in years...
I wouldnt have had anyway to cope...
I wonder how I coped before?
that terrifies me...
I used to to be more depressed than this ALL THE FUCKING TIME...
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ugh....

whine whine whine
im so whiney these days...

somebody shake me cause I, I must be sleeping
but im also pissing just about everybody off....

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I want to pull myself down into a pit of solitude...

all of the stuff thats happened in the last month...

it's killing me, slowly but surely...

I can seriously feel myself dying...

cutting is the only way to heal... cutting is the only way to feel

three new lines, yo...
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looky! I dunno who these guys are but im them!


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okay, ive made a decision...
I just hope this works...
I need to pull myself out of this little shit hole that Ive gotten myself into, so I'm going to stop feeling like this...
it worked last time...
it really is as simple as that, yo! *giggles*

Im going to just get over this and be happy!!

*nods*

so yeah...thats all...

=0P

man...it's so odd knowing people like me...

I was talking to Steph earlier
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