Right now I need to be patient, and maybe pull away a bit. I want him to be out of his situation, but I guess I cannot rush things ( Read more... )

Since moving roughly 7 months ago, I've found myself in a seemingly elevated pessimistic frame of mind. Until a recent event occured ( Read more... )

It will be more normal soon...I feel it. He's ready, I'm ready, it's all going to fall into place. Perhaps I've hung on, and I'm fighting so hard because he is technically my first love. But I feel I should hold on and put my all into it ( Read more... )

As it has been told, Eric is to be moving. I am sure it will be soon. At 6:30 this morning I received a call from her. Eric told me he told her he was leaving no matter what. And about 2 hours later I get a call. I picked up - perhaps a mistake. She said, "Hey who's this" as rude as anyone possibly could. She knows my name, she found it in his ( Read more... )

I've decided he just needs to be spoiled. He needs to be loved, and shown how amazing he is. I don't think he's ever been shown ( Read more... )

Reply to this post, and then ( Read more... )

Good news...Eric is moving, which means we can have a normal relationship. yay! It's farther away though, but I guess you win some, and you lose some. It's gonna be rough the next two weeks while he gets everything in order, and moves out. He says he's got to talk to me about some stuff...I'm kinda worried as to what that may entail. But what's ( Read more... )

I should be out with Eric right now, but he's plowing. erk. I just wanna see him. He called to say he'll be late, if he comes at all. My life totally revolves around him, and it shouldn't, but I don't know what else to do. He said he'd meet me at 7:30...so I figured I'd update everyone on life until then. Let's see...my sister is convinced I'm ( Read more... )

I'm Trying to guard my heart, and trying to make it work. I'm trying to understand and be there for him. I'm trying to be a better person, I'm trying to think more before I speak. We all try to do something different at the start of a new year, but it's only 3 days in and I'm tried out. I am so close to giving up right now, I don't know whats wrong ( Read more... )

As I sit here and reflect upon the year gone by, I realize that the rough, broken road I have traveled has lead me to the perfect place. 2004 has taught me alot; I have learned the value of a dollar, the importance of hard work, and that love might possibly exist. I have learned to follow my heart no matter where it leads me, and I have learned my ( Read more... )