This is getting exciting... and scary!
The head cold is settling somewhat so I can at least see out of my eyes and I no longer have to get around with champagne corks up my nose!
Over the last two or three days I've just quietly worked away on my organisation and planning for my fantasy trilogy, chipping away at it here and there.
You see, I began writing it on 1st December 2004. That's three years ago now. For someone who can write pretty prodigiously that's a long time to finish a book.
Well, it would be, if it were just a book. You see, I got about 3/4 of the way through writing it and realised that it can be so much more than just a book. The story had potential to go in all sorts of places. I really like the concept of the story, so decided to let my imagination run free. In the end, I will have a fantasy series - perhaps three, or perhaps four books.
Now to get the series right, to give it the best shot I could, I really had to work out all the ins and outs and solve all the logistics this sudden growth spurt created.
And that's where the problems began. Self-doubt crept in. Outside demands crept in. The sheer ballsiness of what I wanted to do terrified me. I began to convince myself it would never work.
So, I let it sit for a while. Then, now and then last year I began picking up little problems with it and fixing them. Then, later, I did the family history for Nanowrimo and we all know how that affected me.
Since then, I've regained a lot of faith in myself and dared to re-examine the concept for the trilogy. It IS ballsey, but I believe it will work too, so I set about sorting out all the logistics problems with the planning. Like sorting out a knot in a ball of yarn I just patiently put my mind to it and worked at it until suddenly, this afternoon, I realised the last of the tangles ere unravelled. I had done it. The plan for the series is complete. Logically the story works, so now all I have to do is apply my creative talent and it should fly beautifully!
And, this means it's ready to be written. After over two years delay - during which time I've learnt much and grown as a writer - I am ready to pick up the story where I left it and take it to the heights I dare to dream it can make.
This evening while noodling around waiting for my laptop to defrag I was visualising success, picturing surprising my sister in Queensland by inviting her to a book signing, imagining our life with me as an acknowledged author - and it was marvellous. My hypnotherapist recommends to visualise any success we may seek. He said that way it's less scary when it might happen as we have imagined it, and become familiar with it, so we will not self-sabotage.
I've been picturing myself confident as a writer and that seems to be working, so picturing ultimate success is an alluring day-dream and good for me too!
Of course, there's a long way to go yet and some may say I am setting myself up for disappointment if it doesn't work out, but you know, sometime, somewhere, I have to have faith in myself and this is that time and place.
In the next day or two I shall sit down and begin to write it. I'm not sure when and when I do, I'm not sure when I'll stop either! I've never written when I feel so confident and so sure of my story and myself. I'm pausing before I begin because I sense I'm about to step in front of a speeding train, that when my muse catches hold of this story it will not release me again until it is done.
I'm also pausing because I can feel this is a pivotal moment in my life and I want to savour it, to take time to do a short review and make sure it IS all ready to run and to take time to remember this day, this week, when it did all begin for I am sure that in years to come it will be important to me to look back on.
Now though, it's time for bed. Tomorrow Troll and I are going to the movies to see 'The Water Horse' and we are very much looking forward to it. After that, who knows?.. *smiles*...but nothings going to happen unless I get some sleep tonight!
You can rest assured though, that tonight, just before I doze off to sleep, I shall be imagining success and smiling, for success begins tomorrow. What exciting and scary times!
Red.
Over the last two or three days I've just quietly worked away on my organisation and planning for my fantasy trilogy, chipping away at it here and there.
You see, I began writing it on 1st December 2004. That's three years ago now. For someone who can write pretty prodigiously that's a long time to finish a book.
Well, it would be, if it were just a book. You see, I got about 3/4 of the way through writing it and realised that it can be so much more than just a book. The story had potential to go in all sorts of places. I really like the concept of the story, so decided to let my imagination run free. In the end, I will have a fantasy series - perhaps three, or perhaps four books.
Now to get the series right, to give it the best shot I could, I really had to work out all the ins and outs and solve all the logistics this sudden growth spurt created.
And that's where the problems began. Self-doubt crept in. Outside demands crept in. The sheer ballsiness of what I wanted to do terrified me. I began to convince myself it would never work.
So, I let it sit for a while. Then, now and then last year I began picking up little problems with it and fixing them. Then, later, I did the family history for Nanowrimo and we all know how that affected me.
Since then, I've regained a lot of faith in myself and dared to re-examine the concept for the trilogy. It IS ballsey, but I believe it will work too, so I set about sorting out all the logistics problems with the planning. Like sorting out a knot in a ball of yarn I just patiently put my mind to it and worked at it until suddenly, this afternoon, I realised the last of the tangles ere unravelled. I had done it. The plan for the series is complete. Logically the story works, so now all I have to do is apply my creative talent and it should fly beautifully!
And, this means it's ready to be written. After over two years delay - during which time I've learnt much and grown as a writer - I am ready to pick up the story where I left it and take it to the heights I dare to dream it can make.
This evening while noodling around waiting for my laptop to defrag I was visualising success, picturing surprising my sister in Queensland by inviting her to a book signing, imagining our life with me as an acknowledged author - and it was marvellous. My hypnotherapist recommends to visualise any success we may seek. He said that way it's less scary when it might happen as we have imagined it, and become familiar with it, so we will not self-sabotage.
I've been picturing myself confident as a writer and that seems to be working, so picturing ultimate success is an alluring day-dream and good for me too!
Of course, there's a long way to go yet and some may say I am setting myself up for disappointment if it doesn't work out, but you know, sometime, somewhere, I have to have faith in myself and this is that time and place.
In the next day or two I shall sit down and begin to write it. I'm not sure when and when I do, I'm not sure when I'll stop either! I've never written when I feel so confident and so sure of my story and myself. I'm pausing before I begin because I sense I'm about to step in front of a speeding train, that when my muse catches hold of this story it will not release me again until it is done.
I'm also pausing because I can feel this is a pivotal moment in my life and I want to savour it, to take time to do a short review and make sure it IS all ready to run and to take time to remember this day, this week, when it did all begin for I am sure that in years to come it will be important to me to look back on.
Now though, it's time for bed. Tomorrow Troll and I are going to the movies to see 'The Water Horse' and we are very much looking forward to it. After that, who knows?.. *smiles*...but nothings going to happen unless I get some sleep tonight!
You can rest assured though, that tonight, just before I doze off to sleep, I shall be imagining success and smiling, for success begins tomorrow. What exciting and scary times!
Red.