What a week
Oh man, I could just cry. In fact I've felt the tears coming for days. I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I'm so damn sensitive. I'm usually moody but I take life's curves well. I let annoyances slide. Not this week. My husband and I have been fussing like cats and dogs. He's not doing anything out of the norm, it's just bothering me more than usual. We actually got into a fight over leaving the blinds open so that people could see the christmas tree!
I've felt like shitty mom and wife all week. Walking on egg shells so that my family wont get fed up and vote me off the island. Then I wanna cry that I feel so superfluous in my own family. I've felt like my kids are ruined and there's no hope for them. I've fucked them up and now I will rue all my mistakes for the rest of my life.
I watched the finale of season twos Raising Hope and instead of finding it funny, I cried over the unfairness of the court system. What is WRONG with me?! If i didn't know any better I'd think I was pregnant. The worst is that there's absolutely no reason for me to feel so terrible. Life is good. My husband is wonderful 90% of the time. My kids are practically angels when you look at them in a certain light. So why am I breaths away from weeping my heart out? Am I overdue for a good sobfest?
Am I possibly depressed and if so, why? If i give in and start crying will it eventually come to me like a wet epiphany? So much for TGIF. Here's hoping that tomorrow is better.