A little rant
I wanna talk about a thing that annoys me.
Today at work, two of my colleagues were talking and they have this silly inside joke. So I casually asked what's up with that, expecting them to either fill me in or to start joking with me or whatever. I asked it in a normal way, not mean, not condescending just plain curious.
Another of my colleagues heard that and started mimicking my speech and then he laughed that I got angry. They laughed for a bit and then returned to work. And the matter was forgtten.
When I was in the previous department, one day me and my female colleague which I grew a bit fond there were eating lunch and with another male colleague talking casually. Somehow the topic of driving came up. I said that I am not cut out for it and I will not get a driving license in the near future, because it's too stressful for me and too responsible. The make colleague started teasing me that I would probably scream at everyone and generally be angry.
Yes I do have a temper. I have little patience, especially for machines and the like, because I get panicky when they don't work my way and I need them to work RIGHT NOW. It's not a good quality, I don't like it in myself, I wish I was more patient and composed.
But I don't scream or swear loudly in public. I can gett irrite and a bit snappy, even mean when I am under stress, but I do not explode in anger. And especially at people who I am supposed to work with/for. I hide my frustration for them if they piss me off, because I don't have any place to be sassy, nor am I able to do that when I am not comfortable with someone.
Same goes with teasing. I get friends and family teasing me, but if they go overboard I ten do tell them to stop because I feel annoyed/uncomfortable. Do they always listen? Not really.
My point is, yeah I didn't say 'please don't tease me about this particular negative trait I have because I am self-conscious about it and try and change it, so don't bring attention to it', but there is a reason I didn't and it's that I would be called oversensitive, because yeah I am. So what?
To be honest, I felt made fun off? I was made fun of since I remember and for different reasons, and yeah I should say, fuck that I am who I am, but it's not easy? I tend to bottle shit up and think about it for the next couple of days and weeks and if the person is someone I only interact casually, I also tend to withdraw from interacting with this person, same as I tend to not interact with someone who was supposed to teach me stuff and all I hear are annoyed sighs when I try to communicate something and see eyes being rolled. (I am looking at you here my two seniors from previous department *eyes emoji*)
anyway, yes I am oversensitive, but I don't want people to treat me like a baby. I want to be able to say, please don't do that it makes me uncomfortale and be met with 'ok i won't do that/say that again' but nope.
idk that was pretty pointless
Today at work, two of my colleagues were talking and they have this silly inside joke. So I casually asked what's up with that, expecting them to either fill me in or to start joking with me or whatever. I asked it in a normal way, not mean, not condescending just plain curious.
Another of my colleagues heard that and started mimicking my speech and then he laughed that I got angry. They laughed for a bit and then returned to work. And the matter was forgtten.
When I was in the previous department, one day me and my female colleague which I grew a bit fond there were eating lunch and with another male colleague talking casually. Somehow the topic of driving came up. I said that I am not cut out for it and I will not get a driving license in the near future, because it's too stressful for me and too responsible. The make colleague started teasing me that I would probably scream at everyone and generally be angry.
Yes I do have a temper. I have little patience, especially for machines and the like, because I get panicky when they don't work my way and I need them to work RIGHT NOW. It's not a good quality, I don't like it in myself, I wish I was more patient and composed.
But I don't scream or swear loudly in public. I can gett irrite and a bit snappy, even mean when I am under stress, but I do not explode in anger. And especially at people who I am supposed to work with/for. I hide my frustration for them if they piss me off, because I don't have any place to be sassy, nor am I able to do that when I am not comfortable with someone.
Same goes with teasing. I get friends and family teasing me, but if they go overboard I ten do tell them to stop because I feel annoyed/uncomfortable. Do they always listen? Not really.
My point is, yeah I didn't say 'please don't tease me about this particular negative trait I have because I am self-conscious about it and try and change it, so don't bring attention to it', but there is a reason I didn't and it's that I would be called oversensitive, because yeah I am. So what?
To be honest, I felt made fun off? I was made fun of since I remember and for different reasons, and yeah I should say, fuck that I am who I am, but it's not easy? I tend to bottle shit up and think about it for the next couple of days and weeks and if the person is someone I only interact casually, I also tend to withdraw from interacting with this person, same as I tend to not interact with someone who was supposed to teach me stuff and all I hear are annoyed sighs when I try to communicate something and see eyes being rolled. (I am looking at you here my two seniors from previous department *eyes emoji*)
anyway, yes I am oversensitive, but I don't want people to treat me like a baby. I want to be able to say, please don't do that it makes me uncomfortale and be met with 'ok i won't do that/say that again' but nope.
idk that was pretty pointless