my life is a fucking roller coaster. one minute things are great, the next i want to die. ive come to realize this: all of the problems b and i have are caused by me. i let petty shit get to me and i fucking dwell on it for days. he got a job and starts tomorrow. i am so proud of him. this is step one of getting on the right track. i think with him ( Read more... )

no matter what i do, its never good enough.
no matter how hard i try, it always goes unnoticed.
no matter how much i sacrifice, it always goes unappreciated.

i try to make you understand, but you either dont care or it starts a fight.

why cant guys be more compassionate. why cant you be there when i need you most?

well, it's now 2006. big deal. i spent new years eve alone, imagine that. sometimes it sucks not having any friends but most of the time its ok. theres no drama to deal with or anything like that. i mean i have my brother and i have brian but my brother went to his friends and brain was in glamis. i was supposed to go riding today but we had to ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in a while. nothing really to talk about. christmas was good. been hanging out with my bro a lot. he played at the vault on dec. 23rd. they did good. he just needs to move around more. i'm proud of him though. been talking to brian a lot lately. i'm so crazy about him. he liked his christmas gifts which was nice. im sitting here ( Read more... )

so here is my attempt to capture the past 6 months in one post ( Read more... )

so i'm back from the fucking dead. its been about six months since my last entry and so much has changed. i dont know that anyone will even read this but im gonna go ahead and write anyway. i am sick as fuck and have been three times already this month. life is good for the most part. i mean shit, it could be better but why sit and feel sorry for ( Read more... )

i dont think i'll be posting on here anymore.
if you wanna contact me, my aim is vanessa x edge
or
my myspace is myspace.com/xmsmoshx

take care of yourselves.
♥

no one reads this anymore so i dont know why i continue to post. working full time is going well. day one is over with and it went by pretty quick. plus i get to see katie all day long which is awesome. i miss mr. mosh like mad. he comes back tomorrow tho so thats good. i get to go watch his softball game. this should be interesting. hopefully its ( Read more... )

last night a friend of mine was the victim of a drive-by. a bullet went through her arm, her heart and her spinal cord. they dont know if she'll live and if she does she'll be permanently paralyzed. shes only 23 and has two kids. fuck.

so last night i went to see the longest yard with sean, vic and liz. it was pretty good. pretty funny. of course i had to go pee at the worst possible time in the movie but oh well, what can you do? we smuggled a medium pizza into the theatre. thats what you call skills. haha. supposedly theres a pic roaming around somewhere of me when i tried to ( Read more... )