Fireflies [LaLa's Birthday Fic]
Title: Fireflies
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,279
Disclaimer: I do not own the song nor the amazing boys mentioned in this fanfic. I do own Lala’s appendix though.
You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
It was different. It was something unexpected. It just seemed like it was a dream. One that was too good to be true, to even exist.
'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare
There were these emotions that would swirl around inside of her every time she would see them perform, or even watch one of their videos. Even when others would yell at her, asking her why she was crying, she couldn’t even answer because she was too busy staring.
But she didn’t even know the answer herself.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
For the first time in months, she didn’t have nightmares and wake up crying in the middle of the crying. She dreamt of happy faces with contagious laughter and gags. She dreamt of them. And that made her smile as soon as she fell asleep.
They brought the light to her life when all she could see was darkness. That cliché term that she always seemed to roll her eyes at was actually true to her, to what was happening to her. They were the ones who helped her.
They were her fireflies.
'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
She started to dance. Well, in her supposed case tut. But it was something. She would look up videos, practice for hours just trying to make it perfect. Even if they weren’t perfect, she would show her friends, classmates and they would watch her in amazement. She felt like she was something special, like she could do something others couldn’t. She was proud.
She did all of this, after hearing that nickname of his.
A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread
She actually broke her foot because she was getting into dancing. She realized this while sitting and watching another one of their videos. When she told her friend, their response was to keep dancing if she loved it.
She didn’t need to be told twice.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
They always did say it hurt to fall. To fall so hard for someone that your heart hurt even when you weren’t thinking them. That’s what she felt. It really wasn’t fair. It was that combination of cute Asian bboy and the British accent.
She didn’t believe people before when they said they were scared to fall in love before. But of course, she had to learn it firsthand. She regretted not being more prepared for the pain to come.
Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
Now she couldn’t sleep anymore. She still dreamt of them, but they weren’t happy anymore. They were always always about him. But what tore at her heart the most was the fact that he was almost with her. She remained nameless and faceless, but her presence and the way she would direct her body and movements towards him. All she could do was watch and writher in the fact that it wasn’t her.
That it would never be her.
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
It had to be done. She had to let go. He They made it hurt all too much, too many times. It was hard, it did take a while, but she did loosen that grip in which they were held in so tightly. So tight that it hurt her to let go.
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
She felt empty and alone. The way she felt before she had known them. It was if she was on auto-pilot, a zombie or something worse. She felt irritable, and every single time she would see couples together, she would felt something twist and snap inside of her, bringing those memories and feelings she buried deep within to the surface.
She still kept their pictures, hidden away where she had to look for them, in a place where she wouldn’t accidentally stumble into. That’s the way she made it. And did occasionally check up on their website, to see where they were and where they were going. They were always still there, even if she couldn’t see them right away.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
Months passed. She grew more and more away from them, trying to suffocate those damn feelings that still came up to take in deep, painful breaths from time to time. She had relationships, though maybe there were just to fill the void. She focused herself on other things her friend tried to introduce her to that helped her, but she couldn’t kid herself. He They would always be number one in her heart. And they were the ones she still dreamt about.
She didn’t know how she ended in California though, surrounded by her grinning friends, all of them excited. She tried to feign her enthusiasm as well, but they all knew she was horrible at hiding her feelings, especially when she felt nothing but pure doom.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
They came to the learning center. She kept on wondering why they had to do this to her, hadn’t she gone through enough? Her friend smiled and said it would help, that it would heal after it stung a little. She scowled at the thought that it actually stung a lot, it burned for Christ’s sake.
The group of them turned away from each other and towards the door at the sound of people entering. But they weren’t people, it was them. They introduced themselves as she knew they would, with their own distinct ways of speaking and acting.
But she unconsciously held her breath for the fifth one. “Hello there, name’s Hokuto.”
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams
A little wave accompanied by a small smile was all it took for Lauren feel her body and heart bursting with emotion. She could hear nothing but her heart pounding in her ears. All those feelings of dread and doom were replaced by…happiness? Was this what pure happiness felt like?
It was then when tears began to build behind her eyes that she came to realize, maybe her dreams were closer than she thought. Maybe her fireflies had come back to her.
~EnterBreakEnter~
AN: Ta-da~ I finished him due to my illness. Blah blah blah. I hope it wasn’t too horrible, but the idea just hit me when I promised you. I don’t remember if you like this song either, I think you do. I’m bad at remembering stuff. And…I might do a sequel? If you want that is, I’m making another one for Dobe anyways so I wouldn’t mind. Tell me what you think via facebook I guess. Anyways happy birthday my little one! Hope it’s joyous :3
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,279
Disclaimer: I do not own the song nor the amazing boys mentioned in this fanfic. I do own Lala’s appendix though.
You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
It was different. It was something unexpected. It just seemed like it was a dream. One that was too good to be true, to even exist.
'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare
There were these emotions that would swirl around inside of her every time she would see them perform, or even watch one of their videos. Even when others would yell at her, asking her why she was crying, she couldn’t even answer because she was too busy staring.
But she didn’t even know the answer herself.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
For the first time in months, she didn’t have nightmares and wake up crying in the middle of the crying. She dreamt of happy faces with contagious laughter and gags. She dreamt of them. And that made her smile as soon as she fell asleep.
They brought the light to her life when all she could see was darkness. That cliché term that she always seemed to roll her eyes at was actually true to her, to what was happening to her. They were the ones who helped her.
They were her fireflies.
'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
She started to dance. Well, in her supposed case tut. But it was something. She would look up videos, practice for hours just trying to make it perfect. Even if they weren’t perfect, she would show her friends, classmates and they would watch her in amazement. She felt like she was something special, like she could do something others couldn’t. She was proud.
She did all of this, after hearing that nickname of his.
A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread
She actually broke her foot because she was getting into dancing. She realized this while sitting and watching another one of their videos. When she told her friend, their response was to keep dancing if she loved it.
She didn’t need to be told twice.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
They always did say it hurt to fall. To fall so hard for someone that your heart hurt even when you weren’t thinking them. That’s what she felt. It really wasn’t fair. It was that combination of cute Asian bboy and the British accent.
She didn’t believe people before when they said they were scared to fall in love before. But of course, she had to learn it firsthand. She regretted not being more prepared for the pain to come.
Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
Now she couldn’t sleep anymore. She still dreamt of them, but they weren’t happy anymore. They were always always about him. But what tore at her heart the most was the fact that he was almost with her. She remained nameless and faceless, but her presence and the way she would direct her body and movements towards him. All she could do was watch and writher in the fact that it wasn’t her.
That it would never be her.
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
It had to be done. She had to let go. He They made it hurt all too much, too many times. It was hard, it did take a while, but she did loosen that grip in which they were held in so tightly. So tight that it hurt her to let go.
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
She felt empty and alone. The way she felt before she had known them. It was if she was on auto-pilot, a zombie or something worse. She felt irritable, and every single time she would see couples together, she would felt something twist and snap inside of her, bringing those memories and feelings she buried deep within to the surface.
She still kept their pictures, hidden away where she had to look for them, in a place where she wouldn’t accidentally stumble into. That’s the way she made it. And did occasionally check up on their website, to see where they were and where they were going. They were always still there, even if she couldn’t see them right away.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
Months passed. She grew more and more away from them, trying to suffocate those damn feelings that still came up to take in deep, painful breaths from time to time. She had relationships, though maybe there were just to fill the void. She focused herself on other things her friend tried to introduce her to that helped her, but she couldn’t kid herself. He They would always be number one in her heart. And they were the ones she still dreamt about.
She didn’t know how she ended in California though, surrounded by her grinning friends, all of them excited. She tried to feign her enthusiasm as well, but they all knew she was horrible at hiding her feelings, especially when she felt nothing but pure doom.
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
They came to the learning center. She kept on wondering why they had to do this to her, hadn’t she gone through enough? Her friend smiled and said it would help, that it would heal after it stung a little. She scowled at the thought that it actually stung a lot, it burned for Christ’s sake.
The group of them turned away from each other and towards the door at the sound of people entering. But they weren’t people, it was them. They introduced themselves as she knew they would, with their own distinct ways of speaking and acting.
But she unconsciously held her breath for the fifth one. “Hello there, name’s Hokuto.”
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams
A little wave accompanied by a small smile was all it took for Lauren feel her body and heart bursting with emotion. She could hear nothing but her heart pounding in her ears. All those feelings of dread and doom were replaced by…happiness? Was this what pure happiness felt like?
It was then when tears began to build behind her eyes that she came to realize, maybe her dreams were closer than she thought. Maybe her fireflies had come back to her.
~EnterBreakEnter~
AN: Ta-da~ I finished him due to my illness. Blah blah blah. I hope it wasn’t too horrible, but the idea just hit me when I promised you. I don’t remember if you like this song either, I think you do. I’m bad at remembering stuff. And…I might do a sequel? If you want that is, I’m making another one for Dobe anyways so I wouldn’t mind. Tell me what you think via facebook I guess. Anyways happy birthday my little one! Hope it’s joyous :3