Someone sent me this. I haven't done one of these things for a while, so it was kinda fun to do, coming up with 10 things about myself I'd want to tell people about. Whoever sent it must have thought I'd be interesting. Joke's on them.
1. I’m not interesting. Actually, that’s a lie, I’m the shit, but I was raised to be polite and modest. It offsets my family’s smart ass tendencies. We’re the kind of people for which there is a stupid question and chances are good we’ll mock you while we answer it sarcastically. But other than that I’m a great gal and I’m so much fun to be around. (that last is not sarcasm, this is a true statement, I am a great gal and I am fun to be around)
2. I read, obsessively. I was the kid who read books under the covers with a flashlight when I was supposed to be sleeping. Since I can’t get paid to read books, I help kids learn how to read instead. My hope is to instill a love of reading into a generation of children who only read texts messages and twitter feeds. Hope is a bitch.
3. I don’t always read deep, profound, life-changing books. Do not give me self help books. My self needs no help. I’m wonderful just the way I am. Do not give me classics, I read enough of those in high school and college. Do not give me Twilight, I will probably kill you. Reading is an escape for me. I don’t always want deep thoughts in my escape.
4. Thanks to traumatizing exposure to “Terms of Endearment” as a child, I don’t do romantic movies. I’m the best girlfriend ever because I will never drag my man to watch chick-flicks. If you want to discuss how great “The Notebook” is I haven’t seen it, I don’t want to, move on. If you want to sit down with me and watch “Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters” then I am totally down for that (and really, 6 viewings and that movie still makes me happy). Also, I do not cry, unless you are the Lion King, and then I will weep profusely and with pride. Because the Lion King deserves it.
5. I have a love/hate relationship with television. I love tv (who doesn’t), but it takes so long to tell a story. I’m a busy girl and can’t always carve out time to watch shows every week. DVRs are great, but there’s only so many shows I can record before I just start not caring anymore. Which makes Netflix great. Only, I often get distracted by reading and forget to watch what I want to watch.
6. I’m not as big in fandom as I used to be. I was seriously into Buffy the Vampire Slayer back in the day (to the point of utter madness, there were websites and a mailing list). I don’t fangirl as much as I used to. On the other hand, I probably read fic in more fandoms than I ever have before.
7. I sing, a lot. I listen to a lot of music and I sing. I like singing so much, I even sing the songs I don't like. I'm iffy on radio, because they pretty much play the same stuff over and over. I think this is good though because it makes me research to find stuff that I like. And seriously, just because I don't like radio doesn't mean I don't like artists that get rotation. I just think sometimes the best music isn't Top 40 material. Sometimes the best song on an album isn't the one that gets radio play. Not to mention, radio edits, I like my music pure, curse words and raunchy sex lyrics and all. I have dreams of starting a band and becoming the next big thing (mostly so I can make music videos with half-naked men parading around me). But I think I'll save that for my next life.
8. I’m watch cartoons. Sometimes I justify this by saying I’m a tutor and nothing bonds you faster to a kid then revealing you know all about their favorite cartoons. But fact is some cartoons are better than live action tv shows. So, Adventure Time, Gravity Falls, Regular Show, I watch them. And every single one of my students thinks I’m the coolest adult ever. I also watch a lot of Disney Channel and Nickelodeon. Occupational hazard. My mother thinks this is immature. I think her watching the same Hallmark channel movies over and over is stupid, but it's not going to stop her from watching that crap. Just like I'm not going to stop watching cartoons. Deal with it.
9. I've reached a point in my life where I really, truly do not give a damn what people think of me. People say that a lot, but sometimes it's just a cover. I truly do not care. You can love me (and more power to you if you do because I am great) or you can hate me (which is your loss because, as I said, I'm great), but your positive opinion of me does not validate what I already think of myself and your negative opinion of me does not detract from the wonderful things I know about myself. That said, liking me does make me feel good, so go ahead and let me know that. If you hate me, let me know that, too. That shit is good for laughs.
I'm at a point where I am mostly happy with who I am as a person. That doesn't mean there aren't aspects of myself I'd like to be better. Seriously, I'm trying to lose weight, which is a journey, but I'm doing it because I'm almost 40 and being healthy is important to me, not because I give a damn if people think I'm fat because I don't give a damn if people think I'm fat (I am what I am and if fat is what I am so be it, I'd rather be fat than an asshole). But I'm happy with me as a person. I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm caring, I'm kind. I'm also snarky and sarcastic and sometimes I'm a bit of a bitch, I can be lazy and unproductive, and sometimes little things piss me off. Sometimes I don't give a shit about stuff other people care about, sometimes I care about things other people think I shouldn't. I've accepted the best and the worst of me and I own the good and the bad and the mistakes I made to get to where I am now.
I think this is one of the most important things you can do as an adult. Once you learn who you are as a person, to accept who you are, to love yourself, the good and the bad, and to not let other people take away from the love you feel for yourself, not your man, not your mother, not random assholes on the street. Not enough people love themselves. When you love yourself, the smack haters talk doesn't affect you. When you love yourself, you're a much happier person. And when you love yourself, you can better love the people around you and accept the love they give to you in return. You just have to love yourself enough to know you're worthy.
10. I can’t think of anything else. Number 9 got away from me a bit, but it was the most important one, I think. But there you go. I need more friends, so I’m thinking of starting a book club. My friends are all married and having babies and how boring is that. And I’m pretty sure I’ve exhausted all the interesting things about me.