Merh.

[msgrannypanty]

I'll never get used to this whole moving thing. Or even leaving period. It's 2am right now, just 6 hours before I'm supposed to drive down to LA. And I can't sleep. I have this crappy, nervous feeling in my stomach. And it's not that I don't want to move into my apartment, I totally do! That's the wierd thing. I know I have only awesomeness

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[aurora1357]

so understood it's not even funny. Change sucks and is stupid, no matter what's waiting ahead.

[meanderingmoxie]

... what if you found a dollar?

[angelohana]

It's sort of weird to jump into anything, but what i've come to realize is that once you get down here, it will feel like you've always been here.

I think its a coping mechanism.

P. S. Movie night!

[aurora1357]

don't be ashamed of your post, Laura. It inspired a lot of thoughts, all of which I was planning to ruminate on (and get some sleep so I can think coherently) before replying. I'm still waiting to do that, so I can make sense, but in the meantime....don't be ashamed of your post. You wrote what a lot of people feel....me included. It's ridiculously hard to be yourself with anyone, for so many reasons that I won't even begin to describe them right now. There's a lot about myself that I don't like...that I don't want people to know. There's a lot of insecurities in me too....and there's a lot of insecurities in everyone, no matter how confident they seem. You're great, Laura....

what's odd is that I've found that the more important a person is to me, the more insecure I begin to feel around them. Because they've become important to me, I therefore care more than I did before about what their opinion of me is, and I therefore become increasingly more self-conscious around people that matter to me....when shouldn't it be the