This is only an attempt to mot loose all my enteries.

That Chris is suppose to come and get his stuff and give me my money. And he forgot. So I have to take it to him, since his procrastinating ass has "too much paperwork to do." When you have the whole weekend off you should have your shit done by now ( Read more... )

Scratch that, angry and mad? no. Hurt and sad? nope. crushed and cursed? maybe. Cluster fucked by emotion and logic...yes please ( Read more... )

I thought I had gotten through the worst part. The long sleepless nights, the not being able to eat, the not understanding why. I had stopped crying for a couple of nights, I was begining to feel less hopeless and alone ( Read more... )

When your only friends are hotel rooms ( Read more... )

So I'm going to see a counselor today at 2:30pm, not that I can afford the $70 sessions, but I also cannot sleep at Amanda Stephenson's every night for the rest of my life. So I have to make a list of goals that I'd like to achieve through therapy. Which should take up all my time from now till then. I hope I like the lady and I hope this helps, I' ( Read more... )

Reasons to live ( Read more... )

I can't believe any of this is really real. I had plans and I had dreams and what happened? I sabbotaged my own happiness with my stupid issues once again. All I wanted was something real, something that lasts. The worst part is part of me still thinks it can, still fanatizes that it goes on and on forever never ending never going the way it has ( Read more... )

Well, it didn't last 6.5 years, so according to statistics we weren't even average. So why does it hurt so much? Why do I feel so let down by life? Why do I feel like nothing will ever be good again? and why can't I sleep at night? Me? I can sleep anywhere anytime and here it is sixth night in a row on four hours of sleep ( Read more... )

I have felt for so long that so much of myself was not worth anything. I love my family and my friends and my chris soooo much. But today I learned just how capable I am of succeeding on my own. I am officially on the graduation list for May 2009 and I have to say that I not only am ecstatic that I will be a college graduate but that a huge weight ( Read more... )