The sad day

[mssuperscribe]

Now is the sad day. Yesterday was a bittersweet time at the grave to sing Happy Birthday to my little Isaac. But this is the passing away day, it hurts, just hurts. I can't believe how many people don't understand the plight of grandparents. You see, we have it double bad of the parents, not to take away from the loss of the parents, I know I would

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[moonshineray]

I wish people understood how much I still hurt for him. I can't and won't let it out all the time, but days like yesterday, I cried in the car both ways. I feel angry sometimes and almost resentful. I hate what his death has done to you, how much worse your pain has become since he passed. I hate that Jaime has to hurt like that. I hate that I have waking nightmares of holding his limp body in my arms. Some days I just hate it all.

Most of the time I have accepted it and just wish we could fastforward to a few years from now when things are better than they are right now.

I miss Grandma so much. Hers was easier to accept, but it still hurts. I hurt more for you though, because I can begin to grasp what that pain is like, I get a taste of it everytime you wish you would die.

[moonshineray]

Oh I hope that comment came out right, I do mean that I am hurting with you and Jaime in my own deeply painful way with all these crazy mixed emotions I just don't even know how to deal with anymore.