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Nov 22, 2005 21:30

I have been getting the feeling lately that i might not be enough for some of my friends. I feel the pressure to entertain these people or that there need to be excuses in order for these people to want to hang out with me. Like just hanging out with me isnt enough, there needs to be some serious plan of action. Maybe I am not right for these ( Read more... )

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vedi_cakes November 25 2005, 07:23:03 UTC

Hi. I stumbled across your LJ through girlsinhardcore.

You wrote:
"Like just hanging out with me isnt enough, there needs to be some serious plan of action. Maybe I am not right for these people or maybe it is that these people are not worth it. I should not feel pressure to make these people happy."

^That just reminds me of a something from back in high school which I'll share if you're interested. But yeah... maybe it's time to prune the friendship tree or change their titles, at least in your mind. It's easier to not give a damn about your "activity partners" than it is about your "friends". It's a little trick I have to play with my brain so I don't get all emo when I enivitably get fucked over. "John/Jane was just an activity partner. Nothing to get upset about!" Helps me keep my shit together. I'm such an emo Cancer (I notice you're a Cancer too, go crabs!) :)

mstpreciousedge November 28 2005, 03:38:10 UTC

i would love to hear your story.
Sometimes playing tricks on your brain is the only thing to do to keep sane...

vedi_cakes November 30 2005, 04:03:15 UTC

Here's the story ( ... )

vedi_cakes November 30 2005, 04:04:21 UTC

BTW, I saw Most Precious Blood for the first time last Tuesday. They were awesome.

mstpreciousedge December 1 2005, 22:14:36 UTC

I am going to see them on Saturday. I am so excited! I have seen them a bunch of times before but it never gets old! I am glad you liked them, the new album is killer.

On the friends thing... I totally know how you feel. It sucks that sometimes I feel like i have to work extra hard to entertain people and when I dont feel like doing that I am alone in my apartment watching tv. I also have this mentality that I do not need to be friends with everyone. I am allowed to not like some people. I know people who will befriend everyone and anyone. thats great, I am all about being nice to people but a lot of times when you do that you can either make really great friends out of it or meet those people who you call your friend but they really arent. Sometimes I just dont know. Sometimes I am happy I dont have a whole bunch of friends and I am able to be by myself and then other times I am bummed becuase I`ll go to a show alone. Which is fine I have done it a bunch of times before but sometimes it just gets to you.

vedi_cakes December 1 2005, 23:39:09 UTC

Yeah I've never had a big circle of friends. Lately I've been a lot more open and have all kinds acquaintances, but they are mostly for activity partners and networking purposes (the kind of work I do, I kinda have to be social). I've gone to a couple of shows by myself. Both times I had no one to go with, but I also really shouldn't have gone in the first place because I had a full schedule; so I literally walked in the club just as the band I wanted to see was going on, stayed for their set, and just as the last song was finishing up, already had to make my way to the door to leave. So had I gone with someone else, they might get kinda pissed that I could only be there for 45 minutes so it just worked out for the best that I went alone. But yeah, now I advertize on my MySpace profile that I'm looking for people to go to shows with. Haha. Just another activity partner type situation like a sewing circle or something ( ... )