wow, my last like five journal entries have all been really depressing.  da-amn ( Read more... )

sometimes you're really alone, really alone, sometimes you're really alone.

my life has succumbed to talking to my ex-boyfriend at late hours of the night after drunken fests feeling worthless and wishing i could just lose weight.  great.

it sucks being alone, and on top of that, it sucks finding someone who you think is cool only to find out they're graduating in three weeks.  and not only, but it sucks when maybe the one guy who you've always sort of had a thing for calls you and asks you to hang out for once and you're with the other guy who is just going to end up graduating in ( Read more... )

so i have all these plans, and for the first time in my life, or the first time in awhile, I'm ready and completely willing to putting forth the effort, and work, and determination to get them accomplished.  sweet :-)

ugh i need to get my shit together.

i've been finding that i want to smoke a lot of weed lately...

Comment and I will ( Read more... )

I'm tired.  I'm not really sure why, all I do is laze around, haha.  I suppose that's why.  I love how I had this plan for working out and sleeping all break, and I end up just working and not sleeping.  Oh well, my fault.  But I terminated my employment at McDonalds on Saturday which made me feel good because then it sorted lifted off the guilt of ( Read more... )

man, life is not all about getting fucked up.  what kind of life are you living if you're inebriated all the time?  not that recreational use of all sorts of drugs i'm sure makes life more interesting and can introduce you to new people (some not worth being introduced to) and you know think differently about life and all that.  i personally love ( Read more... )